Charmaine

2009-01-19T02:30:00.005+08:00

I haven't been uploading since before x'mas but i'll do it after i get the photos from Chong and peeps. So Chong, send me the pics soon!;)

Meanwhile, photos taken in Malaysia:
MORE OF PEPPER!!!

He's a darling!

I absolutely love this shitting piece! Look at his expression!

Mom is loved!

Ok. We totally camwhored in the car cuz dad was taking a long time and we had nth better t do.

BAKING:Rasin oatmeal cookies and cashew nut cookies!

PURVIS:

Small baby in a big box.

Gran looks cute!

And I'm sorry if i haven't been online these days cuz I was busily dl videos and watching The Hills! So the best thing we've gotta do t meet up is t go out tgether some time real quick!!! Till then, toodles!

2008-12-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

I'mma revive this blog!

Class chalet last week was alright. The guys were so funny and full of nonsense. And as usual, I was mostly the J in the Jokes.

Thursday's b'lated birthday celebration for Anthia was cool too. Finally, I was able t meet up with Ant, Jo, Beat and Stel all at one time. We had Seoul Garden for lunch. It was my first time at Seoul Garden and it was fun. With all the bbq-ing of all sorts of meat, the failure of cooking our scrambled eggs, the dessert making (We poured our ice-cream ice kachang into our soup!) ... haha. Oh! and we found a caterpillar in our broccoli!!! We boiled the veg and it was only when we took it out that we realised that there was a fugly huge caterpillar stuck in it. The poor caterpillar was boiled t its death and the neh nehs drank a huge amount of soup. :)
Ant, Jo, Stel and I then went t watch Yes Man. That show's so hilarious. Next show t watch: ANGUS THONGS AND PERFECT SNOGGING!!!!!:D

Went out with Shit and roo on Saturday. Went t Orchard t get a lot of stuff. Last minute x'mas shopping! The X'mas-y spirit was all around and it was all so joyous.

I'M OFFICIALLY BROKE!

Gonna meet the babes tmr t pass them their gifts and t help mamaloo. I needa meet up with many people soon t pass them stuff too:D Can't wait for X'mas dinner at Paulaner's! HoHoHo!

2008-12-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

Finally went out again today! The final bus ride home with Spongebob was RIIIDIIICULOUSSS! It was super super longgg!! More than an hour! Oh god! But it was cool cuz we talked talked talked! Oh, I saw Sharon Marky today! She's a comedian!

Anyways... I thought not having a clue on which choice i want was tough and nerve-wrecking. but its evident now that knowing what i want and yet having to think about both sides, thats really the toughest thing t do!

Its so tough that i don't know what t do, what t say, what t decide on anymore... Help me. Please...

2008-12-11T01:33:00.011+08:00

25112008:
Trip to Haji Lane, and Clarke Quay with Spongebob

Mom's workplace.

Small Spongebob, Big Building:)

The nice pub

The nice back of the pub.Colours!!!An Art House for KidsThe Kid!I Finally Found ClubMarc! Spongebob's gonna be on this when she's 18!

Our new pup at Pop's. Presenting..........PEPPER!

One Leg Kicking!

I Love Pepper's paw.

I'm such a HAPPY Girl! Haven't been working and all...
Babes can be reunited tmr when Roo comes back! Yen's back! Gotta plan that promised trip supposed with Kai and her! Stel's gonna stop working and Anthia's B'dae is coming up! Nehneh outing!!! 4e6 chalet! X'mas helpout at Paulaner! Soon to be carried out plan-trips with Che'rie, ShiHan, Ferlycia.... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I've Let Go of 1, settled/ put aside 1, got back loads of darlings and am just hoping and praying and trying to get my last 1!!! The one that i really really really am wishing for!!! I don't mind dying 5 years earlier for it...... PLEASE!!!

2008-11-25T03:09:00.002+08:00

I am really really tired... I just want to disappear... I have disappointed many, I have caused many to be upset. I still have to disappoint more people and cause more people to be upset. I am a bitch. A sad bitch. I'm sorry...

2008-11-23T02:41:00.003+08:00

Its 4.42am and i'm not asleep. Reason being that i slept till 5pm yesterday!!! I guess i just fitted all my lack of sleep hours into one day and i wasted one whole day! But it was nice t catch up on sleep too. Woke up here and there t pee and reply all the text messages that kept coming in over the morning. And yet after i woke up, the text messages stopped coming in...

And now, its so quiet and they tune i'm listening t makes me feel so sad... I guess i miss listening t those tunes! And i have not told anyone this cuz i did not wanna think abt it but i guess i have t face it now.

I remembered that scene in M'sia, lunch with Cyn and Family and we were talking about going back t Pontian and Yy when suddenly dad said, 'by the way, Yy died'. And i was still like, "Yeah i know." And i blabbered on and on. Then mom asked, " How did you know that Yy died?" And then i 'woke' up in shock and replied, " What? Yy died? When?" It was shocking. And i found out that the entire family knew about it long ago. She died during the O's period and dad told evryone t not tell me as he doesn't want me t be distracted. Yy died for like, 1 month plus and only now did i get t know? Does anyone ever think that i would actually prefer t know it then? I feel so darn cheated and yet i can't blame them cuz they had my interest at heart. But i didn't even get t see her for the last time and i heard my auntie cleared her body by dumping it into a river where evryone dumps their dead dogs!!! WTH?!?!?! Couldn't they give her a decent burial at least?

I remember Yy's gentle, passionate eyes, her creamy white coarse fur, her streamlined body shape and her sharp face. She never barked at anyone. Dad says she's mute but I know she's not. She was just a really gentle and subtle being. she was friendly t evryone. Although we had t put her up at my aunt's place after much happenings and dad had no time t care for her, whenever i went back t visit during the new year, i coukd still know that she rmbs me. her eyes will sparkle and her tail will be wagging with pleasure and excitement. She was my first dog and my only dog i have had till now. I didn't even get t send her off. I haven't been a good owner. I haven't been there for her when she needs me. I haven't dedicated the love and care for her as i should have. I did not do my part and i was a bad owner, a bad friend. She might have trusted me t love her and t care for her but i have let her down. I'm sorry... I am really sorry.
I just want t be able t hold her again, t give her a hug, t scratch her belly and t scrutinise her tail to check for fleas. I wanna sit beside her as she lies down and give her a scratch on her back. I wanna feel her lickings on my face and i will always rmb her stinky breath. I wanna tell her that i love her and i wanna give her a pat on her head for just one more time. I won't be able t do it anymore................................. I miss you. I'll rmb you for life, my dearest paw-pal!

2008-11-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda sick of work... Getting sick from working... Working makes me sick. But i love the pay though! December's coming, X'mas is coming, EOY Sales are coming!!! Its a rich man's world.

Through work, i finally know that i am more of an introvert when it comes t speaking t strangers first. I prefer the writing than calling because i like the private spacing given and i can be in my own world, humming tunes and thinking abt stuff in my noodle brains. I'm not the type t talk t strangers first and i feel really uncomfortable when making the calls... Oh well. Its work. Luckily, Allison and Cynthia helped me through these 2 days.

Baking session with Chuapopo and her mom today was simply AWESOMELICIOUS! Her mom is the most adorable mom i've ever met. So carefree and fun-seeking! She really wanted t learn and i hope she remembered it all! The cakes turned out really yummy and they were both so elated over the success. Really adorable Chua ladies. I hope we can have such a session again real soon!

Gonna meet up with Che'rie tmr! And Stel too! After work. Watching HSM3 again cuz we like it. Che'rie's gonna move and stay in lange road next year. Isn't this just great? Another big hse t look forward to. I guess there won't be a slumber party this year... Unless we find another SlumberSlum. Come to think abt it, Stel just madeover her room... My lightbulb is lighting up!

Cynthia received an anonymous call today and she asked me t call back on her behalf. I used my phone t call and the guy didn't pick up. Then, he started t text me asking who i am. Like, ain't i the one who's supposed t ask that qns? Then I lied and said ' You called my other no, so in turn, may i know who you are?' Then eventually i said ' Nvm. Forget it. Nice corresponding with ya.' and the reply was ' ok. Have a nice day.' So we continued shopping for stuff and then he texted me saying, ' but can we be friends?' something like that... And i was literally shocked so i left it hanging. Then he texted,' Its all right if you don't want lah...' I left it hanging again till night time and i said, 'i guess things are fine as it is and we shld just leave the situation as it is. Have a good night!' Wonder why i was still so calm and 'nice' but anyhow, he texted, 'ok. see you again' I have never seen him in my whole life and this was all a mix up. What nonsense was he saying, i have no idea... and i was just telling allison about stranger despo guys in the morning.

I love the tune RIVER FLOWS IN YOU by some yimara or yimura or yimuru or yi(smthsmth) guy. Its so addictive and romantic! Its a tune from Twilight! Love it!

2008-11-20T00:05:00.006+08:00

Ally-phant finally came t work today! Met her in the morning for porridge brekkie. I was l8 for abt 30 mins.. I'm a sorry bummer. haha. Talk talk talk talk talk. Cleared things up.
Work was alright. Time actually passed real quickly. We shared and separated our jobs t make things more efficient. Our very own cool system.
After work, we met up with Roo and as usual, she was l8! So Ally-phant and i went walking arnd and we caused quite a commotion arnd PS. I love my PAWS! They're adorable. I was trying t fit my middle finger into some finger hole but then i realised there were only 4 fingerholes. So i had a hard time taking things. Not gonna elaborate further because its rather embarassing... When Roo finally arrived, she was so fussy over where t eat so in the end, we pulled her to the foodcourt. She told us abt buttman and we were... lets just say, disgusted:D

I didn't think much abt anything today...

Monday's outing with Stellyboo:
Reindeer dropped her horns
CUPCAKE!There were several sweeties who were giving out free hugs so why not? Haha! I feel so loved!

Roo and I really miss YOGA!!! How?!?!

2008-11-19T01:03:00.002+08:00

Monitor Board was coolio! BBQ in school= unique experience! I hope to go back to their camps next year!

Good news and Bad news... Life is so shitty.

Love this quote from Roo's mail. ' Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.'

Gotta sleep now otherwise i won't be able to wake up t have brekkie with Allison...
Toodles

2008-11-18T00:57:00.002+08:00

M'sia trip with Cyn was AWESOME!
We shopped like mad and we bought a total of 11 pairs of shoes! Dad almost fainted when he saw the shoebox mountain.
We went t the temple too and in the toilet lives a really pitiful dog. Doggie had a really bad skin disease and it was shivering. It was afraid of me and it couldn't get up. It couldn't even gather energy t bark. I didn't know what t do. i told Pops but he told me that there's nth we could do. Mom went t look at doggie with me but she was also feeling helpless. I had t leave it lying there. It wasn't a nice feeling t have t ditch Doggie...

The pet shop in 'Giant' also shocked me. They were selling endangered land tortoises and 1 had died and was rotting. They did nth. And the ducks were stepping on their own pee and poop and they couldn't move arnd. The shopkeeper did nth. The cats were lying on metal wirings which is unhygienic and unhealthy. THE KEEPER DID NTH! What was worse was that there was a baby monkey in a huge cage for sale! A baby monkey! The cage was filthy! It was only given rotten apples as food and there were no other toys for monkey. Monkey was so so small. The only way t capture monkey is t shoot monkey's mom. The poor baby had t endure such harsh treatments and it is only a baby! I touched baby monkey and i could tell that monkey was stressed and scared and lost and evrything bad.

I thought Pops had a pair of very sad eyes. The saddest ones i have seen. Then i saw Doggie's helpless sad eyes and Monkey's lost and scared eyes. They are eyes that will cause your heart t ache and your tears t flow. I want t bathe elephants still but now, i also wanna stop illegal wildlife trading. I don't know how t do that but i hope i can do it.

And what have i done wrong again this time? I don't even know what t say. I don't wanna say anyth in case i cause more unhappiness. Just don't trust me. Evryone who's reading now, don't trust me. Don't get too close to me. Don't confide in me. Don't help me. All because you'll end up with a conclusion that i am a Fugly lying bitch who backstabs and harms people with a false pretense of being an innocent saint. I'm a sucky shitty person so call me a nincompoop. You'll all be happier this way.

2008-11-09T03:54:00.002+08:00

I deleted the really offensive parts of my previous post. Don't like to see the offensive vulgarities that are so crude. I'm so sorry for even typing them the previous time. Not good behaviour.

Anyways, things are fine now cuz I'm magnanimous!!! haha! I have a very bad memory and i don't hold on to grudges:D That's if you don't agitate me further.

I have a lot to do this coming week and I've got a lot t think about!!! But for now, I'm just gonna go chill. As usual!

toodles!

2008-11-08T03:04:00.002+08:00

Some people are so dumb. They have nothing better to do in their lives. Wastrels. Imbeciles. They deplete the Earth's resources for nothing. Get a life. Get over it. Dunce.

2008-11-07T21:51:00.012+08:00

I don't wanna give a flying hoot about this now!

Trip To RafflesCity

I love my nehnehs!

Wanni babe and LingLong babe! They are both so brave! The bravest shit in town! I can't wait t see the new embellishments on Tues!!!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

This quiz that Spongebob asked me to do is so true!!

2008-11-03T20:17:00.003+08:00

Mom just went grocery shopping and she bought Premium mixed nuts (w/o peanuts)! Its so awesome to be crunching away and gnawing on almonds, pistachios, cashews and macadamias! But i have 2 ulcers on my lower lip so i kinda look like a squirrel with a serious disability...

SS is over! I only have HMT and MCQ to go!!! WHEE HEE! Super super cool! I can finally watch more episodes of The Hills and Newport Harbor! Clay is SO HOT! To prove my point, i shall include a photo of him!
Ok. So I couldn't help myself and i included 2 photos of him! But its soothing to the eyes anyway!!! Hahaha! I think he looks way cuter than Allison's Oliver or Roo's Jesse. Haha!

I hope to be able to get a job real soon! With Allison and Yenling! Daphne can't confirm but i feel that something's coming up. Ms Chan hasn't replied and i'm still searching! I'mma be independent this hols for all of my expenditures. Ok. Rephrasing. ' I shall be independent this hols for 80% of my expenditures!' I'mma earn my own cash for shopping, X'mas, more shopping and even for my trip! All the best to me!

By the way, HSM3 is so cool! I would watch it again and again. I'm so childish but its really so glam and all! And Allison wants me to watch Avenue Q with her! And I'm going to M'sia with Cynthia! So much lined up! I'm not really interested in the trip t M'sia cuz to be truthful and all, i don't like going back there. At all. To Pop's house and stuff. Pop tempted me with shopping but i didn't wanna go till Cynthia could come. And her mom allows her to join in so yeah! I'll have a mate! I hope i enjoy the trip...

And i'm still swooning over Clay:D:D:D

2008-10-24T22:38:00.009+08:00

Stella's Birthday:
We so pranked her. Or rather, Jo really did put up a great act. Long silly story.. Stel's always getting pranked. EVERY YEAR SHE FALLS FOR IT! Haha.
Photos!!!Hope you enjoyed you Sweet 16 Spongebob!

I came across these hands and i find them t be really adorable?! They are so interesting! The ideas people come up with...

Gonna go do art now. Ciao!

2008-10-15T01:40:00.002+08:00

10 Oct
Yeah I've graduated!

When we first entered ZH:)

As Stella describes it, we're now status-less. I've hoped for graduation t come and now that its over, I miss school. I feel so old...

On Wednesday, I camped over at Roo's hse t do art. We did nth but art. Wednesday, we did more art + graduation preparation. I sleptover again.

On fri, I took a total of 5 cabs.
We cabbed t school because of the many pillows and grad stuff.
After the ceremony and many shots and catch-ups, I cabbed home again cuz i didn't wanna go under the sun.
Went out for supposed lunch with the Nehnehs but Stel's weak stomach worked up and she puked in front of CHEERS. Freaked me out a little cuz she was so weak and in so much pain. Took a cab t the docs nearby cuz she couldn't even move. Crying and all. So pitiful.
The doc gave her a jab and all sorts. Took another cab t send her back t her gran's hse.
After settling the medicine info with her sis, i took another cab t Roo's hse t do art again. I know its like helluva short distance but i was too lazy.
5 cabs in total in a day! Call me spoilt and simply lazy but i really hate going under the sun.

I've been hooked on The Hills. That mtv reality series. ZOMG! Its addictive! I'm controlling myself t not watch it. At least not at this time. But i swear i'mma buy the entire 4 seasons after the O's! I needa save more $$.

2008-10-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

Graduation day is in 4 days! After that, evrything is gonna be different and separated in a way... Its so sad t even think about it. Oh well. Things are gonna remain the way they are now anyway so...

I hope Ms Brandon replies me ASAP! I hope the application will be smooth sailing. Mengfei told me that her friend said that it is really difficult t get into OLOS so i'm really crossing my fingers, REALLY TWISTED!!!

2008-09-25T23:09:00.005+08:00

Great! This is my 100th post and I'mma start by blogging abt our previous DM ( aka Ms Ow) and the current DM of the school, ( aka Mr Chong).

A few days ago, i have t admit that i was pissed at Ms Ow for being ' not understanding' about my art coursework and blah. I knew it was wrong of me t be doing the changes during curriculum time but i had no choice and naturally Ms Ow scolded me for doing wrong things at the wrong time. I didn't want it t happen as ms Sharon rejected the printing during recess and we had t rush it all out again. I thought then that Ms Ow was in a way, cold- blooded.
However, during English lessons today, Ms Ow suddenly asked about my art work and whether it was done, it was alright blah blah. I was stumped and i felt genuinely touched because she didn't have t bother. She could choose not t care. I didn't even think that anyone then would rmb abt it moreover t ask me abt it after t check if things went well. I swear i could imagine her having a halo above her head then. And after that, Kaiwen told me that actually, on that day itself when i went off t do art, Ms Ow queried about my art with great concern and got the story from Kaiwen. I mean, if i was her, i would probably not even bother.
So my conclusion abt ms Ow is that she is just having fiercer barks than bites. She's lovable deep down and now i'm feeling guilty that i once wanted t wrangle her neck. Good grief.

And now abt Mr Chong. He's by far the funniest DM i've ever seen. He's really silly. Like the chem practical today, when he was doing the demos, OMG! It was hilarious! He was so silly and the entire class flipped over his actions because it was so... gong. His facial expressions are also so limited and he has this look where he seems t have this -.- look. Its all so funny he can be a clown at times.

So DMs are not really all that scary and fierce and mean and cold-blooded. They are normal. Its only that they have t appear stern and strict in front of evryone as t upkeep the discipline level and in a way, they earn a living by hunting down naughty students.

I can't wait for the dinner date tmr! Snow crabs, sashimi, tempura. Gossip, gossip, more gossip. I swear we'll have a blast!

Wahahahahahahahahaha!

99% gonna go over with dad only. Mom has t stay here with RylTan. But i like it anyway and i can't wait! Yippee yippee Ai ai! :D

2008-09-06T22:03:00.008+08:00

It's the 6th of September today and so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMELIA LIOW AND BEATRICE NAI!!!Enjoy your sweet 16 and good luck for the BIG exams!

4th Sept
Went t the gym with Annette in the morning and we both exchanged our extremely belated b'dae presents. We both felt unfit so we decided t workout. I nvr knew i could feel unfit... Anyways, so we were both happily working out and we realised there were these 2 idiotic guys from who the heck knows where, they were tailing us about. When we ran on the mill, one ran with us. When we did weights, they did the weights with us. When we were on the elliptical machines, they cycled behind us. Annette got so annoyed, she was like, 'lets go'. And when we were done and walking t J8, we saw that they were walking in front of us. How pissed off we were then.

We then went t Pastamania for brunch and the pinenut dory riso thingy was really good! We walked around and around and around then we decided t go t the library t chat. And we came up with the idea of prank calling Karina. So as we walked out t the interchange, i rang Nana and

Me: " I... I... I have t tell ya smth. But... Ahem. I.."
Nana: "What? Why are ya stammering? Gosh. Tell me!"
Me: " Huh... Uh... Ok. Wait. Someone wants t talk t ya."
*then passes the phone t Nette*
Nette: "(in deep deep voice) Hi. "
Nana: prolly said hi and asked who are ya
Nette:'' Josh. I'm Charmaine's boyfriend and she doesn't dare t tell ya so she asked me t tell ya"
Nana: EXCLAIMS AND FREAKS OUT AND ASKED T HAVE THE PHONE PASSED BACK T ME
By then, i was alrdy laughing uncontrollably and grabbing Annette like crazy.
Nana: " OMG! You so owe me an explanation! Omg! I think i'm gonna have a heart attack!" ( laughs non-stop)
Me: Hahahahahahahahahaha *passes phone back t Nette cuz i can't take it*
Nette: "Hey wait! I'm Annette! And Charmaine is the worse prank caller in town cuz she can't stop laughing!"
And we laughed and i promised t call Nana again another day.

Crazy shit that we do. But it was really funny!

Evening:
Met up with Cyn and went t collect the cake. We ended up being so late and Wanni had t wait for us at the bus stop for 1 hour! Ran here and there t get lighter and t hide from Adeline cuz she doesn't know that Wanni and Cyn would be coming. We poked the candles into the cake and lighted it outside her hse and totally surprised her.
We went for dinner with her family and the meal was so yummy! I nvr knew tofu could taste so good! The car ride to and fro was crazy as we were stacked onto one another and 5 girls sure can make a lot of noise!
We went back t Ade's hse and took a lot of photos and did a lot of crazy girly stuff. It was really fun!
Birthday girl and her choco mint cake I was her dress fitter. Birthday girl and the birthday dress. Not to forget the birthday daisy. Heck i'm retarded! The sweetest Picture of the night!

I can't wait for Camp Rock cuz i love the song " This is me"
I'm a happy gay retard and I'm gonna go back t history!

2008-09-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

A stranger is sitting next to a little girl on the airplane when the stranger turned to her and said, 'Let's talk. I've heard that flights go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger.'
The little girl, who had just opened her book, closed it slowly and said to the stranger, 'What would you like to talk about?'
'Oh, I don't know,' said the stranger. 'How about nuclear power?' and he smiles.
'OK, ' she said. 'That could be an interesting topic. But let me ask you a question first. A horse, a cow, and a deer all eat the same stuff -grass - . Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cow turns out a flat patty, and a horse produces clumps of dried grass. Why do you suppose that is?'
The stranger, visibly surprised by the little girl's intelligence, thinks about it and says , 'Hmmm, I have no idea.'
To which the little girl replies, 'Do you really feel qualified to discuss nuclear power when you don't know shit?

Haha! Thought that was rather funny!

I went t school for Chem tday and Mr Chong is such an adorable man! Allison and I were so amused by him! We decided t go for Chem again tmr. Volumetric Analysis...

Went t the city with roo yesterday t get all my important stuff for the month and we had Suki sushi for lunch. Had such a long catch up since we did not talk t each other for so long.

Gonna go back t art now...

2008-08-30T21:48:00.004+08:00

22nd August. Stel and I went t Serangoon Gardens t slack and get in touch with our IJ selves again. It's fun t be bimbotic again. Not that I'm not usually, but t be more bimbotic than ever was really relaxing actually. There're lots of IJ girls there and we used t hang out at S'goon Gardens when in our primary school days so it wasn't difficult t be all IJish. We went t Chomp^2 for dinner and we went t Frolick for frozen Yoghurt after.
Stel and I had our Ste'char To-Do list and there's so much t be done. I just randomly said that we have t shave my rabbit and Stel really wrote it down and even drew a sunken hairless bunny (as she claimed) although i think its just a really pathetic looking bunny. I can't stop laughing t myself evrytime i see it.

Today.
Hell this must've hurt real bad! But i think it looks nice.

I've been doing art and watching tv. More art, more tv. Having the entire house t myself was a pleasant experience, with no one t bug me until that idiot started texting me again. The doofus doesn't get my point and if he persists, i'm really gonna scream his head off.

I had a happy dinner because i had a cute delivery man send my dinner t me. To think i appeared t him in my nightgown, crazy clipped up hair, purple room footwarmers and paint here and there. Damn unglam... Oh well...

I have been having nightmares since Tuesday and they are freaking me out. I don't really have nightmares so when i do, i wake up in cold sweat and I don't dare t go back t sleep. Not t mention the icky feeling. Thursday's nightmare was the worse and its still so clearly etched in my mind. I hope i don't get nightmares tonight... I wanna sleep properly!!!

2008-08-30T00:29:00.007+08:00

I feel like I'm on a roller coaster...

And parents. They just like t ask you the same few questions again and again even if you answer them so blatantly... Its irritating. Then they promise t bug off but they'll end up asking you again.

Andrea came back t school t'day and we hung out and had small girl talks where Feng Rong joined in. He's one of us... females. But he offers really good male opinions that i've never thought of before so it was kinda cool. Jo, Fr, and I then went t have lunch at Kovan's pizza hut where Anthia joined in and eventually Beatrice too cuz we met her there. We did some really crazy stuff like going up for seconds for the soup when we weren't supposed t and Andrea even went t the extent of wiping her bowl before going t the salad bar t get more. And i made Jo eat her extremely crazy 'salad' of coke, chilli flakes, cheese, baked rice and baked rice sauce, pineapples and lots of pepper. She did it eventually and she did it cuz she wanted t make me laugh and i sure did. Jo:" It tastes like vomit..( tears in eyes and a really screwed up face) You'd better give me my 5 bucks on Monday!" It was the most well spent 5 bucks ever! And i really appreciated the effort t make me laugh. It was awesome.

Stella got her red Vaio. Now she's gonna spend more time on her new red darling and I'm jealous... Ok. I'm not. I'll get my hands on them someday. She's gotta let me touch it! We're bosom buddies ya see.

This is Chua popo!

I'm tired. Bye.

2008-08-27T20:37:00.002+08:00

Screw Amaths! I hate Trigo! I hate Integration of Trigo! I hate Differentiation of Trigo! Trigo sucks!

Yesterday, Beatrice told us a really silly joke. ( you've got t understand hokkien t understand this) Her mom works in a hotel and once, a customer ordered kopi, milo, guni (milk). The waiter then brought her a cup of kopi-o because he heard it is kopi mai lo guni. Heh. I though it was really funny and we stopped t laugh out because we all found it hilarious. Silly waiter. But in the first place, who'd order coffee, milo and milk?

I miss Karina... So much has happened and after a phone conversation with her 2 days ago, i realised no one really treats me the way she does. The great amt of patience and silly shit we do tgether... It's like we can understand each other without having t speak t each other. But its really difficult for us t tell each other evrything simply cuz we're both bloody busy and the time lag is yet another problem. I can't wait for my trip t Melbourne again.

And if i have been really snappy the past few days, i'm sorry. Prelims, problems, more prelims, more problems. My lucky number's been really unlucky.

I didn't mean t inflict all that distrust and irritation but i guess this is just an excuse t you and whats done can't be undone. I'm sorry. I guess i shld just fuck off since its not meant t be made known t me right from the beginning. Fuck all these shit.

2008-08-18T20:03:00.010+08:00

08082008

09082008
The BESTEST birthday in my 16 years! Thank you all!

21 videos, but i'm too lazy. watch how they spin and glide about cuz its pretty.

I'm not in the mood now for much blogging although really great things happened so i'll have t do it someday.

2008-08-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

3 weeks of silence being broken today. It's only made me realize that i was much better off for the past 3 weeks. Somewhere in the back of my mind, a serious voice calls out t encourage me t ignore all understandings i should portray and just not care about you. And i'm no longer surprised that i'm actually considering...

2008-08-03T01:33:00.012+08:00

I'll let the photos do the talking:)

Dominic's Concert:

Ade and IAnd it's us againI love this shot!This looks paparazzi-sh Gleeful look of hers:)

In the dressing room in COTTON ON!!!

See no evil...

Speak no evil...

Some random shots...

CapturingProjecting
I just adore the colours!Our guilty pleasures...

3 weeks without seeing dad... Still counting on.

2008-07-28T22:48:00.011+08:00

Oh geez. So much has happened over the past 2 weeks...

Went t Stella's house on Sat night t have one of those long girly chitters and it felt so great! Haven't really had time t unwind with her so that session was rejuvenating in a way. We lazed on the floor as we talked and with Stella, there will always be camwhore sessions, hence the following photos...

I look darn spastic.

Stella's milkyway...

When i cover my mouth, she winks.

When i cover my eyes, she hides her mouth
I cooked porridge! Yum.

27 July- Mommy's Birthday!

Dinner at Thai Express!

I shall post about Dominic's concert another day since all the photos are all arnd with so many different people. Post abt it when i get all the pics.

I haven't seen or corresponded t pops for the past 2 weeks. I just hope he's sensible...

Drowsiness is kicking in so I'm gonna go now. Ciao.

2008-07-13T22:31:00.008+08:00

God! It's been such a tiring weekend...

My 2 new MONSTER TRAINERS ( DomT and Yen) are really Monster-y. Went t the stadium t jog on Friday evening and i had t jog 10 rounds round the stadium NON-STOP! ha. Of course i didn't continue throughout without stopping... I swear, that was the longest run throughout my whole life! I even had calf cramps for the first time and hell it hurts! And the many warm ups, the sit ups, sit squats plus many funny exercises that i have never done before... We're gonna run again tmr... OMG.

Went out yesterday t watch Hancock. Didn't think that the show would be interesting but i loved it all in the end. The twist t the story was smth i didn't expect and Charlize Theron was so hot! Great show! Before the movie, D and I went t eat Korean food!
I love the mung beans!
Korean pancakes!
Uncooked raw marinated beef! I broke my rule again...

First time that i had Korean bbq beef! It was yum!

Some crazy camwhoring after the movie!
Roo and I.

Retarded Roo and Dom! :D

One mindset: Study and rest. No more hanky panky! Cuz I WANT that ticket!!!!!

2008-07-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

There's a freaking problem with my MSN Messenger! A few days ago, i was still beautifyng my blog, downloading the 'Me To You' bear messenger skin and it was all so cute and lovely! And then, 2 days l8r, MSN crashed down on me!!! SHITTER! Now, i gotta use ebuddy web messenger and its so not convenient!

And i am so pissed of with my mom! She's seriously getting on my nerves! I don't even wanna mention anything about it.

Okay. To some happier stuff. I FINALLY managed t talk t NanaYu last night! Although it wasn't a long chat, it was the first chat we had in the past 1 month! We were both so busy with our Mid-years and tests plus Nana got a job t kill time after her school and all the blah blah crap going on... We're gonna chat on Monday again!!! YIPPEE!!!!!

Class bbq tmr and i can't eat like what i normally do! Diet diet diet! Ah... Oh well! And i'm gonna flunk physics test, get back into SDL and have more ssps and tuition, I'm going bonkers!!! And now, i'm gonna go eat some apple sticks! Ciao.

2008-06-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

OK. Doing this cuz of dearest Feng Rong who decided t add me as one of his tag targets...

* People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.*
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people!

1) If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- Hmmm, if he wants t betray me then i guess i can do nth abt it. I'll probably just end evrything and move on. What's the point of keeping someone who doesn't love you? But yet again, when in love, nth can be confirmed.

2) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Score below 15 points for 'O's t get that ticket t go for a holiday with only Nanayu and me!! Actually, I would rather have my studying- overseas dream t come true.

3) What will your dream wedding be like?
- Haha. I want a romantic wedding!!! Actually, as long as i am gonna marry my beloved, that should be a dream wedding already.

4) Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- No. I don't think so... I know what i wanna do. I hope it comes true:)

5) What's your ideal lover like?
- Um, I want a sweet sweet boyfriend:D Just someone who will love me and be there...

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-Both are cool but i like loving someone more cuz i'll get t see the person be happy and feel loved.

7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Huh? Uh... If it'll work some day then i'll wait. I'm patient k...

8) If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-Oh man... That's so saddening... Been there, felt it. IT SUCKS! I'll just try t occupy myself with other things t allow the crush t fade off...

9) Is there anything that's made you unhappy these days?
- Yeah. But it's over. At least for now. So i'm moving on...

10) Is being tagged fun?
- Its alright. But this quiz is hell LONG!

11) How do you see yourself in ten years time?
- I'm in either Australia or America, BATHING ELEPHANTS!!! Haha! And i want t be able t drive by then!

12) Who are currently the most important people to you?
- My friends! Family too i guess...

13) What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- He's quirky but really nice. Great friend!

14) Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
- ?!?! If i'm married but poor, is the marriage a happy one? If yes then i'll go with the latter.

15) What's the first thing you do every morning?
- I open my eyes and then i'll cover my face with my blankie, feeling really tired...

16) Would you give it all in a relationship?
- Yeah. We have t give in our all in everything that we do right?

17) If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- Can fall in love with 2 people simultaneously? I don't think i can cuz I'll alrdy be crazy in the guy i'm in love with in the first place...

18) What type of friends do you like?
- True Friends! I love all of my friends!

19) What type of friends do you dislike?
- Hypocrites. It irks me. But overall, I still love all my friends!

Ok. Phew! I'm finally done... And i'm really wiped out t'dae with all the studying and mugging... So much t blog but I'll prolly Blog abt those stuff another day... I needa sleep now! Nights.

2008-06-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

I've been feeling so lethargic for the past 4 days. Art is taking its toll on me. Also, there was the Monitor Board camp.

I slept for:
1 hr on Sun
4 hrs on Mon
6 hrs on Tues
3 hrs last night
I only slept for 14 hrs in 4 days! 14 HOURS IN 48 HOURS!!! And did i forget t mention, its like I'll sleep in the wee hours of the morning just t wake up in the early morning, like 7++/ 8++. Its no wonder why Roo says i look like Kungfu Panda.

And throughout all these, i had a nose infection and my ears got infected as well! They hurt like crap and the doctor gave me eardrops, which btw, stinks t high heavens and when dripped in, it causes my ears t itch and its really uncomfortable.

My ears, nose, art, plus the lack of sleep caused me t be rather easily pissed off these few days.

Putting things aside. Monitor Camp was FUN!!! It was enjoyable and rewarding. So much happened, got t know so many other mates. Its just indescribable.

Mr Kelvin Tan's death has made me realise that life is so fragile and I should really make good use of time. Before I leave the planet, i hope i'll be able t:
Study in Melbourne/ Boston
Bathe elephants
Finally have a dog
Complete figure skating courses ( at least complete up to freestyle 4)
Take up tennis lessons
Have a pet pony and a pet snake
Go t Melbourne alone again to visit Nana
Go overseas with my friends ( With no rents attached t tag along)
Be a vet
These aspirations and wishes seems impossible but i really hope that it'll all happen and that i'll be able t experience them all. Oh well...

Supposed t hand up our art yesterday but Roo's canvas is too huge to be fitted in a cab and it was raining so we did not wanna take the bus. Called Ms Sharon and she allowed us t hand it in t'dae. We had t use the lorry again. Mahjong at Roo's hse was cool! Dom and I won most of the games and it was really enjoyable! Wanna play MJ again!

Went swimming with AdeL and Roo t'dae. Pervert uncles shld be banned frm swimming complexes! I just wish i could really slap their eyeballs... Checkup tmr!!! I don't wanna go! I gotta go alone tmr! I'm afraid! The previous course failed and it'll prolly be that i'm gonna have t start a new course over again... Darn it.

School's gonna start in 3 days! I dread, yet anticipate it. It will be hell frm then on, with no breaks in between, no leeway for faults yet again. Life sucks.

2008-06-13T22:56:00.017+08:00

Ok. This post is specially dedicated t Dearest Stella Anne Low! She's been asking me t come and blog and so, here goes.

First up. Some time ago, i watched the movie, Blue Crush on Channel 5 and i fell in love with it immediately. And then, i went t search online and i realised the actress is actually Kate Bosworth!

Isn't she just simply gorgeous? And she can really surf in real life!

And next up, art!
My Mid- year artwork.

This is Stella's random painting when she was waiting for me.
This girl is warped! Excels in evrything she does...

After art, we walked home tgether and we went t play on the swings opp OLGC. Playing on the swings just brings me back t the past. Times with Karina, Chanel, ShiHan... It was great t be able t feel so carefree once again!

Swings are one of the best inventions!

And t'dae, the outing with Che'rie and stella! Long day, but great fun! Major shopping session! Major catchups too!
Watched Made Of Honour ( screened a long time ago but we only watched it tdae at 1050am. Its prolly the last screening.) and we were the first grp t enter. Cinema was empty. Felt so free! Wanted t monkey arnd but more people came eventually.

Illegal shooting in the changing room...

Che'rie's 'haggard' look.

Can't wait for the next outing again! But it'll have t be after the O's...

Lastly, some really random crap.
I want this note!!! 15 points and below and I'll get it! 15 POINTS!!!And this. This super uber disgusting looking brown beetle, it was on my table!!! I freaked out! Had t zoom in so many times to take this cuz i did not wanna be close t it. It could FLY around and it just reminds me of the identical one i saw at Subway with DomT and Wendy. Another one of these shitties was on a man's shirt and i was so worried that it would fly onto me. Beetles that can fly are all disgusting. And roaches and ants too!

2008-05-17T01:39:00.016+08:00

Kuishin-Bo for dinner today!!! Yum!

Hokkaido air flown snow crabs! Grilled cheese lobster! Ooh mama! Cold ChaiSoba!

Ding Dong dessert! Blueberry whipped cream crepe!Cakes and chocos!Digging into my eel! Jonehma, dinner with my sis! (Shown)Tea to aid in digestion after the monstrous meal...And these are only approximately 1/3 of the selections from the buffet. I have such a SMALL appetite:D

Trip out to city for the second time with Yen and Kai was really cool and great just like the first. It's a wonder how nutsy we can get when we're out tgether! LOVEITLOVEITLOVEIT!!!
Kai and Yen can smile LARGE smiles!!!

Marking day- To the city with Wanni, Cynthia, Jennifer, AdelineL and Roo!
Spot Wanni! She looks really adorable!!!Illegal shooting in MNG.

2008-05-12T02:41:00.003+08:00

MYEs are over! Wednesday is DOOMSDAY!!! I'm so gonna die...

Bought 2 new pairs of shoes as i went out with Stella on Friday. It was really cool and Stella's shopping attitude was da bomb! It's always so exciting to go shopping with her as she hardly ever goes home empty handed.
Realized that i bought all my besties ( except for a particular 1 or 2 of them) Golden roll and everyone of them always gives me that priceless expression when the roll enters their mouth. And i always have a salmon yamakake to go with it. Gosh. I'm drooling at the thought of it. I wanna go for the sushi/ sashimi buffet, but whenever i get anyone to go with me, it appears that they're either on a saving strike, or on a diet... GRRRR! I WANT MY SASHIMI!!!!

Another of my Philippine cousin came down to Singapore several days ago in search for a job. Boy, he's uber tall! Had dinner with him on Saturday and i went t Stella's house after that. Played the SIMS!!! Man... I wanna buy the game disc too! I can only buy it after the O's otherwise, i'll never get away from the computer... It was so funny as I was busily trying t satisfy my Sims and to get them to fall in love and all the flirting and fondling and kissing... Really funny. They ended up with a bad hygiene level, a hungry stomach, a depressed mood and they were really worn out. Stella has never seen the sims making out on a love couch before and we tried to get them crazily in love but i had to head home so she was left to continue the task.

Mother's day today. Bought mommy a meal and she's really nutsy. She called Eunice Olsen, Umar Owen... Haha! And look some of the really great gorgeous moms in hollywood...

Gonna go out with Yen and Kai tmr!!! Can't wait!!!
Adios.

2008-05-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

No idea whether to feel confused, upset, betrayed, outplayed or simply as a failure.

It was all so well wrapped and i didn't even have the common sense to tell that something was wrong. I'm such an idiot. Never expecting and only crumbling upon knowing.

Prevented from hurt only to dawn upon greater shock. No one to blame except myself.

As voices are raised, faces turn to look. Beyond anger lies sheer exasperation. Eventually, it all dies down, but wounds only heal to leave scars.

Sisters annoy, interfere, criticize. Indulge in monumental sulks, in huffs, in snide remarks. Borrow. Break. Monopolize your things. But if catastrophe should strike, sisters are there. Defending you against all comers. If you don't understand how a woman could both love her sister dearly and want to wring her neck at the same time, then you are probably an only child.

2008-04-30T20:22:00.005+08:00

The keyboard feels so unfamiliar beneath my fingers...

Currently tuning in to Leona Lewis's " Best You Never Had" and it's really a cool song. It's really meaningful and inspirational and it just makes me feel like nothing is ever of such a big deal.

Speaking of music, I ripped the cord out of my earpiece today in the morning when i was in such a fluster to get it out from the bag. How much more "meticulous" can i get? Now i've gotta buy a new earpiece by myself...

Been on a search for Cheerios and i still am not able to find my beloved wheat rings... Singapore should really consider importing Cheerios and other great cereal than KoKo Krunch or some other kiddy cereal...

Came across this joke that's really... I have no idea how to describe it but it made me laugh.
And it goes:
Johnny was on board a really packed bus and the lady opposite him said to him, " If you're a man, you'd get up and let others have the seat." Johnny replied, " And if you're a lady, you'd get up for 4 other people to have seats."
Mean joke, but really funny.

The smile I once saw on your face, it was as if it came right from your heart. It was the cutest expression I've ever seen and i can still remember it up till today... Was i wrong about it? Is it my own silly interpretation? But it seemed so genuine...

2008-04-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

2008-04-09T21:09:00.003+08:00

Me and my favourite animals in cartoon.

PFT 5-item test today. I coulda gotten a silver if i coulda jumped 3cm more!!! Darn It! But i'm proud of my 30 inclined pull ups! Haha! It was the only segment where i could perform well. I have strong arms and ONLY strong arms... So you'd better not piss me off unless you wanna receive a powerful punch from me.

So, i guess i haven't really been talking to many people these days... Especially Yen and Joneh and Anthia. Have so much crap going on and its all taking up so much time... SDL is stupid, dumb and lame. It's a mental killer. I swear to rid myself of it soon!

My friggin mom just entered my room, passing my sis a goddamn textbk which she thought she has lost. And i happen to remember seeing the book somewhere under my Mt Everest ( table) so i went to try and look for it, testing my luck and VOILA! I found it. My mom then got so friggin pissed as she wasted 7 dollars for nth. She started to scold my sis and then turned around to reprimand me. Like WTH? I was being nice by actually making an effort to go look for the arn book and i got scolded? Shitter! Then, she started to rummage through my table in hope to search for another of my sis's lost books. I jolly well know what my mountain is made up of, so i told her NICELY and POLITELY that the book isn't there. But heck no. She continued with her search and after several informs, i got really pissed, so i raised my voice. My mom looked at me and i knew what she was gonna say, so before she could say anything i said,"Don't you tell me to not use this sorta tone on you cuz you're really bugging me!" And GUESS WHAT? She replied, " Don't you dare use this tone on me." Like??? Retarded reply. I guess i now know where my retardedness comes from. My loud classical music in the background soon turned to a loud pop song. Since she told me to keep the volume down, i guess a worked up pop song would piss her further. Indeed it did and soon, she stormed out of the room.

I hate it when she invades my privacy. Like before, when i packed my sentimental stuff, it was all neat and nice. Then, when i wasn't home, she told my sis to go use the wrapping paper from there. And my idiotic sis had to choose the nicest one that Nana used on my 14th birthday. All the shit about being neat. It only attracts more attention. Plus, with my dressing table's issue, it being neat and nice as well, it only attracted my sis to come and invade and use my products. She thinks i don't know, but i do know. I can tell that smth's wrong no matter how appropriately she puts the things back. Argh. So i've decided, i'm not gonna pack my mountain. At least it irks them and makes them not wanna go near my table. I'm alright with it. I can totally live with it. I know what my mountain's made up of and i know how to work through my mountain.

I get a similar situation every month, so i've decided to pass through it without a darn heck care.

2008-04-08T00:22:00.003+08:00

Ferlycia finally sent me the photos we took on Wednesday during our dinner date, as well as those we took on Thursday before Nana left. Now, all that i'm waiting for are the pictures from ShiHan and Jonehma...

After having Pepper lunch for dinner...

Autoshot, Groupshot!

In the toilet of Hougang Mall...

Nanayu And I... Before leaving to the airport...

Last few shots in Nana's S'pore's home...

At the Airport! Love cute little Yan Jun!

When Cynthia and I went to Causeway point...

The train was super new and empty so we kinda fooled around slightly:)

Am gonna fail Amath test again!
Gettin so frustrated over it! I don't wanna bother about it no more...

2008-04-06T22:54:00.008+08:00

I'm finally able to blog properly again after i have bought a new keyboard. Seeing that my previous keyboard's final row of alphabets z,x,c,v,b,n,m went nuts and i couldn't type anything. So here i'm regurgitating all that has happened for the past few days.

Last Friday was Sports Day and 4e6 did really well! We bagged quite a few great medals and we fully displayed such a great bond and i had so much fun. I have also learnt that Ms Fu and Mrs Ngiam are great candy lovers as they couldn't stop having the jellybeans. Teachers munching on jellybeans- it was really funny.

My greatest buds in class!

Kuang Jun's SEXY LEG!

We squeezed Adeline!

Ms Tay went nuts with us!

4E6 on the track!

To the right!

To the Left!

To wherever you want!

Raise your hands in the air like you just don't care!

Informal squeeze!

Fantastic 4 (boys)

Fantastic 4 ( girls)

2008!

Look at that! Great achievements from our monitors!
Our Mamas!

Before Sports Day, Stella, Jonehma, Camelia, Beatrice, KKaiwen, Melanie and I went to Cafe Cartel at j8 for lunch. Food there was simply heavenlicious! Jo, Beat and I had the ribs and Stella said we each had a pig on our plate. The size was HUMONGOUS!

Stella's Editing!

Group shot.

Me with my Pig on my plate!

In Anticipation.

Stella's Gobstopper! Try posing with the Australia gobstopper!

Jolene's new camera has such cool modes.

Bye Nana! I'll miss ya!

Photos from Jo and ShiHan are not sent to me yet so i'll probably post them another time.

Cynthia and i met coincidentally at J8 today and she met up with me after i did evrything and she went with me to Causeway Point.Sent my phone for repair and they are gonna reformat it and all my 232 important messages will be erased!@#$%^& Hell lot of shitty crap! Oh well! Pissed off with gadgets!

Toodles!

2008-03-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

Gotta study for Physics, Studying for Physics, Gotta finish studying Physics!

Busy!Busy!Busy! Therefore, i'm just gonna post a really sweet mail and a meaningful proverb for filling up's sake.

The proverb goes like this: A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's hearts, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.

The proverb kinda reminds me of Miami ink in where there was a girl who lost 3 of her besties, one who died in an accident on a train track, one who committed suicide on a train track, and 1 who got knocked down by a car... Sad cases... The girl must be darn shattered... So, better treasure all your friends around you and try to keep in touch with all acquaintances you made...

Now, the really sweet mail i received from my cousin:

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she is gorgeous..

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.

• let her mess with your hair

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• forgive her for all her mistakes.

• look at her like she's the only one you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you're around your friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms..

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she's sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her. ( even if it can make your skin creep due to the weeping and lovey dover cliche lines)

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she's sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she's important.

• let her take all the photos she wants of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell her.

• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

So guys, you might wanna take a tip or two. Girls, just fantasize:)

Toodles!

2008-03-29T22:10:00.002+08:00

Omg! I'm so tired, i'm gonna collapse! I HAVE SUCH A BAD HEADACHE NOW, I WANNA CRASH MYSELF INTO THE WALL!

Ms Fu is such a gem! She was so cute while talking to my mom, smiling non-stop... She said really nice stuff but also brought out the obvious point that i need more help for amath and science... Every year, evry FT of mine will say the same thing... I can even recite it out myself. And i have to go for the SDL thingy... Ms Fu said that even though i am not the kinda students who are really irresponsible and need major pushing, but i am one of those who needs more help and more time in order to understand, thats why i gotta go... Oh well... I don't mind about it actually as i am kinda alrdy having SDL with Stella after curriculum time... I guess it'll do me more good than harm.. And i learnt today that if you put my mom and mamaloo's mom tgether, you'll get peace. Or rather, mamaloo and i will get some peace as the two of them can talk without stopping and they'll leave us alone... Thanks to Mamaloo's mama for offering to send us home today!

Dinner with Annette, Roslyn and Nana was great! Annette and Roslyn look so much prettier than when i last saw them!

My headache's gettin worse... I'm gonna go take a pill now and l8r, i still gotta go to M'sia and wake up at 6AM tmr!!! I need more sleep time!

2008-03-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

I am like so PISSED OFF right now! It's like talking to a Mental patient which will never get the point that i am trying to get across! Oh yeah! YOU'RE MENTALLY UNWELL! Piece of crap you gave to me!!! I'm like talking to you about something that is kinda like my final pleas, but there you go, linking a simple request into all sorts of nonsense! Like who gives a darn crapshit care about your plans into the future and blah blah blah? I don't! So just try to listen and understand because you ought to loosen up!!! ARGH!!!

Then, i just downloaded GIMP and its such a crazy programme and the figuring out of how to use it is already causing a migraine in my brain!

Well... Moving on to stuff of a lighter mode... So, Nanayu came and we went to the Hub to catch a movie entitled "Vantage Points". It was a thriller and it was seriously good! It was about the few viewpoints of the different people who witnessed the bombing and it was kinda warped but really cool! It's a great way to film a movie and its seriously interesting! And i had a 6 inch- Parmesan oregano- subway melt sandwich for lunch, while Nana had a bowl of noodles shared amongst herself and her mom before coming and so, anyways, i was really full and bloated! But, Nana kinda coaxed me into eating popcorn and nuts while watching the movie, and so.. Yeah i did. And after evrything, Nana said to have dinner with her... By then, i swear i coulda explode and after a long long long thought, i said ok, and we had Korean Bibimbap rice. It was really yummy but seriously, i swear never to eat so much within such a small amt of time without much movement ever again!

Gonna make buttermilk pancakes tmr! Then i gotta go for the Parent-teacher meeting thingy( which i am really worried abt as i fared really badly) in school... Dinner with Annette, CherieL, Roslyn and Nana! And i gotta rush to M'sia- Pontian in the night for grave cleaning in the early morning of the next day... Plus, brunch with Shihan and Nana at Paulaners... I hope i can make it for all as planned...

Just give me till the 3rd of April and i swear i'll turn my engine up on full blast! I just need the last few days!!!

I'm sorry...

2008-03-27T20:05:00.003+08:00

I am gonna go to school tmr!!! WHEE HEE!!! I seriously missed a lot as from what evryone's been filling me in evry day... I can't wait to go back to see evryone!

Gotta really thank Kai, MF, Yen, Roo, Stel, Yingyin and AdeA for all their help and care towards me... Seriously, you guys make my headache go away! Love y'all! Not to forget Nana as well... She's been talking to me, calling me even when she's out, just to ask on my condition and she makes me laugh too! I love her to bits! Friends are the best med to treating sicknesses!

Oh man.. Yen, no matter what, don't let me/ whatever happened to me, affect your point of view/ the situation... It's not worth it! You guys seriously share a bond so deep that if smth happens, it'll be such a waste... Please...

I just received the outlay of e6's yearbook page.... It looks super adorable! Kudos to evryone, esp Roo and Kai!

2008-03-26T20:24:00.003+08:00

I guess i shouldn't have gone to school today... Got sent home after flag-raising... Just as Yingyin quoted:" You broke the school record by coming for 15 minutes and then going home." But i swore i felt alright in the morning... It's only in school that Roo and Mf says that i look swollen and puffy, and W and Kai and Ms Fu and both Ades say that i look really pale... It was so embarassing to be sent to the sick bay and then home... Gotta thank Mengfei for helping to carry my bag and for ensuring that all the necessary procedures are done up in order for me to leave for home.

Upon arriving home, i read my book for a short while and i drifted off to sleep... When i woke up during mid noon, mom forced me to go see a doctor again... I love this lady doctor! She was really friendly and nice... I am so gonna only visit her when i am sick in the future to come! At the counter, the nurse handed me 5 different kinds of medicine. I was kinda stupefied as i realised that i have to take them all... The doc asked me to stop taking my current pills and start on this new course. The antibiotic pill was so huge, it left me staring right at it for about 30 seconds before it dawned upon me that i have gotta swallow it and there's still more of it in the box... I hate meds!

I have an mc for tmr but i really hope i can go to school tmr... Its getting boring for me to be at home while all my friends are at school... Well, at least i can chat on the phone with Nanayu! But i still hope to be able to go back asap!

2008-03-25T21:23:00.002+08:00

Its been more than a week. I have not been going to school for the past 2 days and i really hope to be able to go to school tomorrow! I miss all my buddies! Actually, i kinda went to school today and i went into ms Ow's class at 1.48 when school ends at 1.50. Evryone was laughing at the fact that i actually attended class even when it'll be ending soon... Ms Ow:" So you come to class now just to say hi to me when it's ending soon?" I love Ms Ow! She can be really intimidating at times but she can also be such a dear!

HCL test was manageable i guess... But the auditorium was spinning when i was taking the test, so hopefully, i could keep my clear then... And i sounded like an irritating boogieman, snorting and coughing... I'm sorry to those affected...

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO JONEHMA!!! Mama is one year older now... Sigh.. Time flies and evryone grows so quickly... I can't imagine turning 16... Soon i'll be 60... Oh GOD! Hell, i am old! I hope Jo loves all that she's received and it was such great fun.. Love the part where the cake was smashed on her face! we are a crazy bunch of nehnehs when put together! LoveitLoveitLoveit!!

Hopefully, i can meet Annette and Nanayu tomorrow! Haven't seen Annette for a long long time now...

If someone doesn't treat you with basic contempt, then don't waste your time trying to solve the matter as only the person themself can change the situation... I think i have learnt a lesson... Kudos!

2008-03-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

It has been such a sick weekend... The darn virus in me still hasn't gone away and i was being forced to go see the doctor... I hate seeing doctors. All they ever do is give you shitty medicine and you have to take those crappy things to get well. But the problem is, i hate taking medicine and i shun away from them. But evrytime, i still would have to take them eventually... I am still feeling sick and i wanna barf... But i only had 2 slices of bread for dinner! Plus, there's an additional headache... I am dying...

Went out with Karina after cemetery cleaning on Friday... That sweetie is as gorgeous as ever and she didn't tell me that she got me so much goodies from Aussie... Made me feel so bad... We went to the city and at first, when i took the cab to go pick her, i asked the uncle to send us straight to Orchard after that as i was too lazy to walk under the scorching heat... However, nana said that it would just be a waste of cash and so, we took the taxi back to AMK mrt. Uncle laughed as i was so retarded to take the cab frm my hse( which btw, is really near to the mrt) to Sengkang, and back to AMK again... Ah well.. Didn't use my brains again i guess.. After we walked out of the mrt, on the way up to the malls, i suddenly heard loud shouts of my name frm behind, and when i turned, i saw Mengfei and Allison... They were laughing uncontrollably and i was so worried that they might fall off the platform step... As to why they were laughing, it was really embarassing in a manner so i shall just shut up abt it. We walked up and down Orchard road for at least 6 times and we got so tired... We even ran under the rain... Went home at abt 7 for dinner and Grans together with mom, whipped up such a feast for Nana... It was all YUM! Then, had a last minute decision to go sleepover in Nana's hse as next week, there would be cemetery cleaning in M'sia. It was so fun and i absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE sleepovers! It was as though evrything was as per normal and i felt like in the past...

Sorry to Winona and Ck if you guys are ever reading, I swear i'll try to make it up to you guys k!
On Sat, we met up with ShiHan! We made the call to meet her on Fri and she totally didn't suspect anything... So when she saw Nana on Sat, she had this look on her face that's priceless! She was totally Punk'd by us and it was so hilarious as she was so shocked and when she found out that her dad knew abt it too and he too, kept it under wraps together with us, she didn't know whether to get mad or to admire... It all went really well and we had so much fun! Took some really crazy snaps outside of nowhere and SH got so crazy. Oh, and the pistachio nougat in Raffles was super YUMMY!

Went to Nana's aunty's house for dinner and Yan Jun was as lovable as ever! The meal was so sumptous and it was all good! Sleptover again and we watched some really old music videos and Britney was so pretty in the past... Not that she's ugly now, but if she plucks herself up, she would still be a diva...

Spent a lot of cash, bought lotsa stuff... I gotta start saving again!

Tears dried, heart died... I need to get a new life and relight! You put me through so many emotions, i feel lethargic...

Ok... Gonna go use PROACTIV now! Toodles!

2008-03-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching Project Runway 4 and now I'm using the small amount of time i have before Miami Ink 3 starts.

Apparently, plans on meeting Nana today, changed. I guess I'll just have to wait till tmr...

It's Good Friday tomorrow and people will be going to church. But me, I have to go out in the early morning with my entire family, including my aunts, uncles and cousins, to the cemetery... We're gonna clean the graves of our ancestors... Well. Actually it'll be really fun! Kj And Kp are like the two most silliest clowns ever! We'll get to eat BAO tmr!!!

After evrything, I am gonna rush to meet NANA!!! We're gonna go to the city (Orchard) and we're gonna turn all girly and crazy! Gonna probably eat Golden Roll again and I wanna get that Roxy bag! But i am gonna get Nana all the makeup first! She ought to get all that she wants tmr as she deserves it all!

Ami James is SO super ADORABLE when mesmerised by that GORGEOUS HOT MAMA!!!

Tim: "I am such an old fart!" Charmaine: " Yes you are, but a really lovable one indeed! (:"

2008-03-19T22:08:00.003+08:00

YIPPEE!!! NANA ARRIVED!!! GOT HER CALL!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO EXHILARATING! YOOHOO!!! Can't wait to see her after school tomorrow!

2008-03-18T22:03:00.002+08:00

Did i mention how much pain my ulcer is causing? It gives me a lot of trouble too... I have to consume my food with a TEASPOON!!! And when grans cooked flat rice noodles today, i had to cut up the rice noodles before consuming. I also gotta use my bottle to drink, even when at home as i can shoot the water in and not have any contact with the ulcer... The ulcer is making my life miserable...

Nanayu's arriving tomorrow! She'll be touching down at 9.05 pm... WHEE HEE!!!!! I'm so excited to see her! The others are all gonna get such a great big shock to see her back here as they don't know... You guys are gonna get Punked in a way! haha! Believe it or not, i am bouncing in my seat now! Wahaha!

I really hope to go out with Nanayu on Sat, but i also wanna go together with the nehnehs to celebrate Jonehma's birthday... Plus, it's the day which marks " Happy Sweet Sixteen" for two lovable sweets! Oh my! I have so much to do on Sat... I need more time!!!

if i happen to not be able to fufil some expectations on Sat, i am really really sorry k... I'll owe you guys big time! Serious! I am sorry...

One day, he/she will understand... FR, don't worry... * will see the light and things will be fine...

2008-03-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

School's gonna start again tmr... Sweet nibblets. Just the mere thought of it makes me sick... I think i completed all my schoolwork... I hope i did them all... Don't wanna start the new term with a silly mistake...

My freaking ulcer hurts like crazy...Gonna go apply the medication now... Toodles.

2008-03-15T21:07:00.002+08:00

Currently tuning in to Chris Brown's- Say Goodbye... It kinda made me feel better...

Just finished watching Disney channel's movie titled, Life Is Ruff. It's such an amazing movie about a dog and it's owner... It was so touching... How i love dogs...

Jonehma is back!!! When she called me today, i was sleeping due to a migraine, and i was in a droggy state.. When i woke up, i actually thought i had a dream about her ringing me and evrything turned out to be so funny... Ah well, you've gotta experience it to know the silly mix up...

Ace-learning is goddamn arsed up and i am not able to go on to do my work! Hell, its driving me nuts!

My head's spinning and it feels so heavy... My throat is so sore and itchy... Roo says i sound like a man.. Maybe that's good news for some... Pray that it stays like that forever...

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you're gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

:) Wednesday to come soon!

2008-03-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

The outing today was super cool! Going out with Yen and Kai was a super awesome experience! We did some crazy things and caught up with all the happenings. I had a target to complete 6 meals but we didn't meet up to it... But we did manage to savour some really yummy food such as baby soup baos ( xiao long bao), steamed yam dumplings ( which i have to comment on that they taste really really good!), golden roll, salmon yamakake ( salmon with raw japanese yam which kinda looks like mucus), fried egg fried rice, dry mee siam, beer battered fried fish with battered chips and lastly, the 2 darlings bought me an iced latte! Whee! Thats a lot of baggage for the stomach! Didn't get to eat my gelato and po luo baos though... "The entire outing was like a food trip"- quoted by Yen. It was really great and i bet Kai was introduced to a lot a new eats today. Oh! Towards the end, when we walked all the way from Orchard to Dhoby, and when we went into Carrefour, Yen and Kai went to try all the tryout eats and spent a particularly long time at the fruits and nuts section.. I swear, the lady there was getting pissed off by us:) Bought some pressies for certain people whose b'daes are just round the corner. Made fun of Kai and "Gavin" and Yen and Bunny... It was all crazy but seriously truly amazing! I hope that the one planned for after the "O"s can happen just as well...

There's meeting in the morning tmr at 730 and hell, i am feeling so lethargic!!! Mr Poh just bombed the news on us that there are quizzes to be done on acelearn. 3 to be exact... I have to go to KJ for help on amath too... Well... Time to start mugging again!

19th March!!! In just 5 days time! Whee Hee!

2008-03-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

Solitude is a garden where the flowers have no scent and the spirit withers. There's a subtle resonance lurking around...

Imagine you'd won a contest. The prize is that every morning, you would have a bank account in your name containing $86400. However, there are 2 rules. 1: evrything you fail to spend will be taken away from you that night. No cheating, no switching of the unspent money to another account. You can only spend it. But every morning, the bank will open a new account for you, always $86400 for the day. 2: The bank can break off the game without warning. Any time, it can be over and there won't be a new account. What would you do with a prize like that? Would you spend it on yourself, your family, your friends? Spend it on evryone, on evrything? Helping others with the prize, satisfying your unsatisfied wants? Now. All of us have this magical account. It's time. We all have a big account filled with fleeting seconds. Evry morning when we wake up, our account for the day is credited with 86400 seconds, and when we go to bed, there's no carryover into the next day. What hasn't been lived in the day has been lost. Yesterday has vanished. Also, not forgetting rule no. 2, our account can close any time. Life can end at any moment. So what would you do with your daily ration of 86400 seconds which are far more important than dollars? Great way of interpretation i got from a book. Makes me guilty about not treasuring my life and the people around me well enough... I gotta start now or it'll be too late...

Oh my.. This post of mine is still not completed after 3 hours.. I was watching tv in between, snacking, talking and now i am gonna take a quick bath... I'll be right back...

So... Am back now after 15 mins... I gotta finish this up real soon or It'll nvr be done up within the night... Oh.. It's the wee hours of the next morning alrdy... I'm good..

Jonehneh's coming back soon... Yippee!! Can't wait to hear her adventures!

2008-03-12T22:41:00.007+08:00

Am uploading photos for the first time!

OMG! STEP UP 2 IS SIMPLY AMAZING! AWESOME! WAHAHAHAHA!!!

I feel like watching the entire movie again! It was simply so rad! LOVEITLOVEITLOVEITLOVEITLOVEIT!!!The dance moves were just so... so... OMG!!! Plus, the main actor and actress, they are both stunningly gorgeous!!! I was seriously swooning in my seat in the theatre! Oohhhh! I am so gonna buy the dvd! It's simply superb!!!

Che'rie is soooo nutsy! She just can't stop bopping her head to any tune she hears in the mall... When we're eatin, walkin, even when we stand in the middle of a crowd, she's crazy i tell you! Haha! But I still love her to bits!!! Stella and Che'rie have not met up since sec 1 and today, when they're put tgether again, OH MY! They are a pair of silly bulldongdongs! Haha! Che'rie and Stel said that they don't eat popcorn... So i thought happily to myself that i could have the whole thing to myself.. But to my horror, they SUDDENLY regained their love for popcorn and they started picking out all the heavily caramelized ones, leaving me all the white tasteless fluffs ... But it was fun sharing all the popcorn together!

Running under the rain today was super FUN! It was the craziest thing i have ever done throughout my entire secondary school life! It is something i will never forget! Especially the part when Yen tore a hole in the cardboard fruit tray! I could squeeze water out from my skirt and Yen looked so adorable when stretching out for her leg and when the water just pours out! Credits of experience to go to bunny! :)

I have been eating and eating and eating! I think i have had 6 meals today! Oh my momo! I AM GONNA GROW TO BE LIKE A SUMO!!! Oh god!

2008-03-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

As promised, i am gonna start my post with the "ken lee" video and its bringabouts... Madam-mamaloo showed us the "ken lee'' video today during the photoshop duration. We had such a blast watching it... It's really hilarious... Even Yunsheng was laughing his ass off and he even blogged about it before me! Haha! TULIBU DIBU DOUCHOO!
Go watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RgL2MKfWTo

Actually, art camp is really useful... It may be stressful and tiring, but it gives us the push to do all our coursework.."The journey is only beginning and it is gonna get tougher".- Ms Sharon. Hell, it is!

Gotta go back to school tmr for Chem and Amath. However, i can relax after that as i am gonna meet up with CHEONG!!! Haven't seen Cherie since last year's X'mas and i am finally able to hang out with her again tmr! Yippee!

Can't wait for Friday too! Am anticipating the ''date''!!!

19th march is inching its way bit by bit... There are just so much happenings around!

Ok... I shall end here to get back to my CSI Miami!

2008-03-09T21:08:00.003+08:00

I just watched Twitches Too (2)! It was so sweet... I love the tiaras and the gowns... Haha! So princess like...

Totally slacked throughout the entire day. Watched hell lots of television and didn't do any work... I am such a lazy bum...

How am i gonna be like a 7 year old kid? What do 7 year olds like? What kinda pictures would they take? Where am i gonna get a 7 year old from? Argh!

There's art boot camp again tmr...

I have been eating and eating and eating through the day... I am growing so darn fat!!! Like, ice-creams and cakes and rice and nuts... I needa sew my mouth up...

2008-03-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

YENLING!!! THE PIECE OF NEWS IS STILL WHIRLING ABOUT IN MY MIND! I AM FEELING SO PUMPED OVER IT! REALLY ECSTATIC! MIRACLES DO HAPPEN, and this won't be the last miracle. Trust me about it, cuz i am psychic:) Saw my name on your blog thrice. You are trying to make me really famous eh? Haha!

I've just recorded a silly voice clip, and i am gonna think of what to say for the next! I'm such a retarded ass... Hahahahaha
:)

Art camp is sooo super energy- draining... Painted from 8am till 7pm with only 2 breaks in between... If i ever see another paint brush within the next 24 hours, i'm gonna break, throw, stomp and jump on the brush with all my might...

The actor in the Korean drama- [ My Girl] is so so so so so darn cute!!! Also, the romance between is just soooooooooooooooo sweet!!! I love that show to bits! Go and watch it and i swear you'll swoon too... Guys, the actress is really adorable looking too!

Dearest Yen: You injected "botox" in your cheeks yourself:) Relax your cheeks from time to time k... Or else, you'll look like you suffer from overdose of botox and your cheeks might fall off tomorrow due to the stiffness! Haha:)
Ps: You're so adorable when you giggle!
:)

2008-03-07T23:08:00.004+08:00

ART CAMP TOMORROW!!! I hope ms sharon will allow us to plug in to our devices for entertainment, aka music...

It's gonna be the start of the march vacations and very soon, it'll be the end... There's no time for me to relax cuz i promised myself to buck up and i am gonna honour my promise to myself for once!

Jonehma left for the States today and i'm so gonna miss her... It was all last minute arrangements for her to leave today due to the lack of seats and somehow, when she told me in the morning that she would be leaving at 3pm, i just felt so lost. I behaved like as if she was gonna migrate for good... It totally felt like when Karina was gonna migrate to Aussie... Its a bad feeling... Hate to see my friends go... But, i know Jonehma will be back and i look forward to seeing her... Got her to buy stuff back for me too! Hope she'll enjoy herself there!

Prize giving today was silly.. "Stella: They are making a big fuss out of nothing..." It was seriously boring for me as we gotta sit according to our assigned numbers and i was kinda irritated with all the clapping and restlessness. The reception after that offered chocolate fondue, and all the students were crowding around that small pathetic fountain of chocolate, dipping all sorts of yummy duddys into the fountain... Mr poh was comical, esp when he said Stella had to pay him 5 buckenoonoos for eating. He's such a joker:)

Ps: All my darling buds out there, a meal's coming your way! Whee Hee!

Gotten this bulletin post from Raden (did a few amendments based on my views), and i absolutely agree with it.

Friends,
We Find Ourselves Telling Each Other Of Our Lives...
Things We Dont Even Share With Our Own Family Members Who Raised Us...

But What is A Friend?

A Confidant?
A Lover?
A Fellow E-Mail?
A Junkie?
A Shoulder To Cry On?
An Ear To Listen?
A Heart To Feel?

A Friend Is All The Things And More!
No Matter Where We Meet,
I Call You Friend.
A Word So Small,
Yet So Large In Feeling.
A Word Filled With Emotion And Undescribable Greatness.

It Is True Great Things Come In Small Packages.
Once The Package Of Friendship Has Been Opened, It Can Never Be Closed.
It Is A Book Constantly Being Written In,
Waiting To Be Read And Enjoyed.
We May Have Our Disagreements, We May Argue...
We Feel Concern For One Another...

Friendship Is A Unique Bond That Lasts Through It All...
A Part Of You Is Etched In Me...

Friends Come And Go, But True Friends Last Forever.
It's Not Easy To Find A True Friend...

Charmaine Acknowledges She Has Found Hers.
( Actually, i have found quite a few... And i love them all the same!)

2008-03-05T20:16:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's WeiLing's Birthday!!! WheeHoo! Birthdays are such great fun! Receiving pressies are exciting, giving them is really fun too! Can't wait to pass them to her tmr! HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to you girl!

Saw ShirleneH in j8 today... She looked really gorgeous... Stella spotted her first and she smiled back. No idea if she saw me though.

Why is it raining evryday? I mean, i really adore rainy days, however, they kinda make me sleepy too... The cool ( or rather, chilling) weather is killing me... Even my natural blubber is not able to serve of much insulation towards the cold.

Strawberry swiss roll ( from Polar cakes and puffs) is really tasty! It's really really YUMMY! Now i know why Yen described the cake to me with such great excitement. half of my strawberry swiss roll is sitting here right beside me and i can smell its sweet berry smell from time to time. Granny pronounces my strawberry swiss roll as stawbeddy swee dol... She's really adorable when speaking English.

My cake's calling out to me now.. Am gonna end here...(:

2008-03-04T20:31:00.003+08:00

I am so disappointed with myself!!! I screwed up Chemistry, screwed up Physics, screwed up Amath, and i screwed up HCL!!! I wanna give up on my Amath! Been giving up all my recesses and my time with my darlings and although i improved doubly, i still FAILED! I screwed up evrything bad! BAD BAD BAD!!! Anyone, help me!!! I need help bad! My Sciences and my maths, they're killing me!!!

I wanna watch JUNO!!! According to Nanayu, it's really good and its worth watching... It's NC16, but i shall try to force my way in... Beatrice watched it alrdy and she managed to get past so i hope i can too if i am gonna go watch.

Jonehneh's gonna go to the States this Sat morning for a holiday! Mama her... Leaving me behind to go for all the extra lessons alone... You'd better get smth back for me k.. Haha:) Nah... Just arrive back safely and i'll be really glad to see ya again!

Miley Ray Cyrus is the new disney star to be brought up, just like JT, BS, HD and LL... I still feel that i love Hilary the best! There's just smth abt her that makes me love her. But she's not really been acting in any movies or coming up with new songs these days, so she kinda feels absent... Nanayu says my collection of HD and LL posters are way too nutsy:) Well, they're part of my childhood i guess...

I wanna start working hard!!! Stella's gonna help me, Mr Wong's not giving up, Mr Poh is trying his all and is keeping a lookout for me, KJ's getting infuriated and irritated by my spasticness, but he's not giving up too... There are so many more sweets around me, willing to help me and even asks me whether i need help... I don't wanna let them down! I will never allow Jiangmehmeh to have that kinda look in her eyes towards me again... She's too lovable to be let down!

2008-03-03T21:25:00.002+08:00

I love this quote from Ally's sweetheart.... It goes somewhat like this" do not fear growing up slowly, but fear standing still in time" Am i growing up real slow or am i stuck in time?

I wanna apologise and talk to you, but i simply daren't to. What if i get the cold shoulder in return cuz you meant what you said and i know you'll stick by to your words no matter what. I'm such a chicken... But if you read this, which i also kinda hope you won't, i just wanna say that i'm really sorry for irritating you and being so retarded that you don't even know how to communicate with me... I'll love you as a friend no matter what!

Wanted to ask mom if i could go jog today and i actually was spastic enough to wanna give the excuse that i wanna see if i could spot Mas blah blah cuz i sense his presence in AMK. How stupid is that? VERY! So, i thought about it and realised that it's too stupid to be used, so i threw the idea away...

i did a painting to start on my storybook and i think it looks really really comical... I shall go off now to study for HCL...

2008-03-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

It's a wonder how i can tolerate all the shit you give me. You want results, yet you want me to make time for you. You expect everyone to be revolving around you and to give you all the attention, and you want all to suit to you. I hereby tell you that i don't give a damn about you and your selfish thoughts and you can force evryone to heed to your commands, but i am not gonna be one of the fools. You can die with an overdose of pills, going by the rate that you consume them, and you can go crazy with you and your mental problems, but just leave me outta them! I prefer weekdays more cuz at least i don't see you. Stop acting all pitiful and pathetic cuz i'm not gonna fall for it. You can cry yourself to sleep for all i care and bang your head against the wall, but before you do that, just think of the commotion you're gonna create and perhaps consider doing it when no one is around to know.

Rainy days are great days for sleeping! Sleeping is the best thing to do if you wanna run away from reality. I love sleeping!!!

2008-03-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

It's a tiring day!!!

Had such a long session of amath and emath in the morning... During the break in between, i went to get my "present" from Yen and it turned out to be a lovely box of GRAPES!!! Yummy yummy grapes! They were so sweet and delicious... Mengfei said it reminded her of "Grape babies". Apparently, grape babies are actually created when a man's sperms are so friggin fertile and when it infuses into the egg, it creates many babies. There was even a true case where a lady had 20++ grape babies in her womb and they all were bunched up together like a bunch of grapes. There were only distinct faces with no babies, and all 20++ of them had to be removed as there was no way they could survive. The poor mom probably was so traumatised, and her husband should donate his sperms to sperm banks for couples who can't conceive.

Had to wait till 12 for Allison and during the interval between, AdelineA and Jackson decided to wait with me. They couldn't bear to let me wait on my own and so we roamed round the school... Saw the gymnasts bounce on the trampoline and we really wanted to go in and bounce too! It looked like so much fun! This suddenly appeared in my mind. " I can bounce TOO!", " No! You bounce THROUGH!" Haha!

After that, Jackson gave us a presentation on his Chiangmai trip using the photos pinned outside the Staff Room. Sounded really awesome and I could tell that Jack really enjoyed the trip. We also attempted to go and talk to YingYin and Anthia, to ask about their campcraft experience. Turns out that it got postponed due to the heavy pourdown and the both of them didn't reply us when we talked to them and we found out soon that it was as their sir was there and they are not allowed to talk to anyone when he's around... Such a sad case... So, Ade and Jack showed me their skills on the piano. The school's piano is seriously in need of great help! You don't have to play the piano to know that it's seriously twisted. Ade taught me how to play a very basic piece on the piano, and it was such a blast! I had so so so much fun! But my baby finger was kinda a tad to short and i ended up with baby finger cramps :( I looked like i had finger spasms...

When Allison was finally dismissed from choir, all 4 of us went opps of school for lunch. at first, Jack and Ade tried to psycho ally and me to go to the arcade. But i don't know how to play any arcade games at all except for Bishy Bashy, The driving game, and the childish one known as Bumble bee where all you have to do was step on all the lighted floor buttons. Plus, Ally has tuition at 230, so we objected against going to the arcade. But i promised jack i owe him one trip to the arcade with him and i had to give him absolute assurance that i would honour my word. We had such a long chat through lunch and in the midst of the session, i found out that Ally is a MACHINDIAN. ( Malay and Chinese and Indian blood mixed together) I felt so bad that even after 7 years of friendship with her, i only knew her background now... Bad Bad me... Ade and i also talked about the guy within us and I think I am such a boisterous girl. Am so not a lady cuz i am so loud and rough and violent... (Note to self: Gotta change that!) And i told Ade that i absolutely love guys who dresses up in shirts with the sleeves folded up to their elbows matched together with jeans, and i actually really wanna have a suit like that... Thinking back, if pops heard me making that comment, he would kill me! Well, dresses, classic LBDses, long skirts, mini ones, they all work for me too i guess! At least i can feel free in a dress/skirt.

Slept through the afternoon and i woke up to go for facial where i slept in the parlour again. The lady praised me for my good behaviour during the extraction as of the previous time, i kept complaining that it hurts so bad. Then, there was news on the radio stating that the prisoner with some weird name hasn't been caught and that the police will be sending out text messages with his picture on to everyone. It then dawned upon me that this is really a serious matter and i am still waiting for the text message to be sent to me... It should be really exciting although i might suffer from fear and nightmares. Jolene's reaction to it was seriously hilarious. ( Go read her blog)

The March holidays are all filled up with camps and extra lessons... Life's a boring routine... And mom keeps asking me to go on the cruise with the whole family... I don't even know if i have the time and i don't wanna get a demerit like last year cuz i went for a holiday instead of going for lessons... Even going for a holiday seems like such a chore.

Its the last year i'm gonna be spending with all my Secondary friends.. Have been causing so much shit that i didn't really think of how i'm gonna make this last year a memorable and enjoyable one for all. I've let my buds down and i gotta make it up to them... I don't wanna regret over a lost friendship cuz i absolutely adore evry single one i am having with all my special loves! If i offended you, i apologise here. I'm really sorry. If i didn't meet up to your expectations anywhere, tell me abt it. I can accept the harsh reality. I'd rather we talk it all out be it face to face or on the phone than to keep it all bottled up and left stagnant...

Ps: esp to Yen, fishnets are really itchy and uncomfortable!!!

2008-02-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

Its the 29th of February today!!! Leap year day!!! It's kinda exciting for me as i feel like its kinda like the world cup... 4 years once...

Anyway, something random, Jessica Alba simply looks stunning on the OSCARS red carpet despite her bulging pregnant tummy. Heidi Klum shone too! Her dress looks gorgeous! Go to www.oscar.com to check it out if you're bored!

Went out with Yen and Roo after school today to AMK Hub. Yen had her first try of Subway... We sat in Subway for more than 3 hours and we were having girl talk the whole time. It was fun and relaxing... Realised that if girls are just being put together around a table, even with nothing else around, we can plainly entertain ourselves by chit- chatting!

Tried Snow Ice for the first time today and it was rather yummy. Have never tasted anything like that. The ice was super smooth and fluffy and the mangoes, the mangoes was just heavenly!!!

Major math sessions tomorrow... 7.30 all the way till 11... Thinking about it just makes me tired...

2008-02-28T21:06:00.004+08:00

Apparently things took a turn for the worse...

I never expected this... I thought it was on the way to becoming better but suddenly, it just went the other way...

I have never seen you in the way you deemed yourself to be. Not for now, and i know that it won't be, even in the future.

I needa grow up. Thats what evryone tells me... Cuz i am simply too naive and gullible. I know i have to grow up to keep up to evrything. I wanna mature too... However, its smth easily said but seriously, who can tell me how to? It's just smth that comes naturally and perhaps i was born with a defect in my brain that makes me a retarded and naive 'kid' as of what i am today.

It's stressful and difficult to be facing it evryday... Perhaps i am too childish to understand all of you. Perhaps my suggestions are just stupid remarks. Perhaps i'm such a donkey that nobody ever bothers explaining to me...

No matter what you say, what you do, what happens, i'll still treat you as my best friend. To you, you are a baddie who just bullies me. To me, i know you were there for me when i needed a listening ear, even if the timing is not suitable, you'll still stay listening to me. You keep a lookout for me cuz you know that my stupidity will land me into deep shit. You never fail to make me smile and you always try your best to tell me that i'm great and you will try to make me feel confident. You're always forgiving me despite the many times i irritate you and say retarded things. You're even willing to sacrifice to make me learn that the society is not as simple as what i think.

You can continue to feel whatever you're feeling, but you can't change my mindset on it. I know that all the things you have done to me were just playful acts with no intended harm. I don't know how to explain things to you cuz you'll try to get you point through and eventually, nth i say will be heeded.

I will still treat you as my best friend no matter what, cuz the marks you left in my life, are deeply imprinted and it'll never go... No matter what, please don't feel guilty towards yourself. If by behaving like that makes you feel better, i'd rather it be this way. Just don't feel that you're an asshole...

2008-02-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

What the hell happened? Will anyone tell me anything?

I am not angry, not pissed, nothing... I am CLUELESS cuz things suddenly turned out like that for no reason... Did i do something wrong? Will it ever return to like as it used to?

ARGH!!! I swear that if i ever sigh again tmr, i am gonna slap my own eyeballs!

WooHoo!!!

2008-02-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

Back From Motivational camp.

Its been really inspirational and awesome. The camp has opened up my thoughts and views on certain points. It has allowed me to know more on where i want to go, what i wanna pursue. I so swear that i am gonna work for that friggin chance to go overseas.

Three days of motivation and serious psychoing was although stressing and mind-boggling, however, it was also an eye opener, a challenge. The course was seriously lotsa fun. Not only did it allow to bond with my inner self, my parents, it has also allowed me to bond with my friends.

The camp lasted for 3 days and within this 3 days, many things happened. I saw DomTan cried twice and i don't know why guys always have to be so tough and keep their tears in them cuz i realised that guys look really cute when they cry and crying guys just makes my heart ache so so much. Well, perhaps its cuz we hardly see them cry so when they cry, you just feel so unprotected for them. Also, i've had the most number of hugs within these 3 days. a hug is really the best thing ever anyone could have. It feels so secure to be in someone's arms and it's really a magical thing that warms you up. Yenling is the best hugger in town and this gal can really give you the greatest bear hug ever! I love hugs from Yenling bear!!! Haha! Bear and B****.
The last day of camp, 16th Feb, was the best day of my life cuz i witnessed a really touching and impromptu reconciliation. Roo and DomTan gave me this wonderful surprise. Re-enactment: Roo after making her brave and touching speech, was in shock and great break down mode. ( guess she was proud of herself too. I sure was really proud!) She had a badly tear stained face and tears still didn't stop coming down. I gave her a big bear hug, Yen gave her a big bear hug. Then, suddenly, DomTan was behind when Yen moved aside. Roo and Dom looked at each other EYE TO EYE and i have never seen such looks in their eyes before. It was a mixture of relief, sorryness and pure friendship love. Then, i don't know who initiated it, but the both of them gave each other a hug. It was a hug worth top prize cuz it was a really meaningful and salvaging hug. The both of them cried really badly through the hug and it made me cry too... Roo was sobbing really really badly and Dom cried too. It was the first time he cried in front of pubic i guess. It was the first time he broke down the i hate Roo wall to reveal his true feelings that actually, he still loved her. The both of them showed me the power of a friendship. Be it whether you have done wrong or not, a true friend will always be there, ready to forgive you eventually.

Anyways, i also conclude that kaiwen and Yen are the strongest ladies in town. They held my hands behind my back and after several backing outs from *, i lost it!!! 16 years and i lost it on 16 Feb!!! What an irony. Funniest thing is that we're not even together... It smelt like onions and lasted less than a second. So i couldn't deduce much on my first. Haha:) * was kinda unsure at first too. Came close backed back and laughed then came close and backed again then eventually did it. It was a scary experience for me cuz i have nvr done it and to tell the truth, i was really really nervous. But actually, it ain't that bad. In fact, it was ok cuz i didn't really get to digest it as it lasted for a millisecond. It was rather exciting actually!

Haha... Its making me nuts and i am really going nuts. See, what i'm typing makes no sense too. I better get off now to recuperate:):):):):):):):):):)

2008-02-08T15:22:00.000+08:00

It's the second day of the Lunar New Year! There are so many relatives out in my hall now but i am here, sitting in front of the computer, blogging away... Well, who cares. 15 minutes away from the crowd wouldn't really matter would it?

Anyways, i am having a friggin tummyache now... And my little cousins just came in to check things out. They are both little toddlers and they are both so cute and curious. So, i am having a tummyache and a headache and a runny nose and puffy eyes... i reckon that i am looking like a sore, sick hippo now.

CNY is rather boring. Considering that i have been sleeping my way through the whole of yesterday and that i am not really well and i haven't really been out to go around for visits. But tonight, we'll be going to my aunty's house to visit and in the later wee hours of the night, my friends would be coming over to play and 'extort' red packets from my parents! Haha!
Pops kinda gave me the whole day off tomorrow and i am allowed to go anywhere with anyone till anytime( well, of course i have to come home before midnight). But, now that i am given the green light to go out, i have no idea where to go. Plus, people will all be going around too so there won't be anyone to go out with me. Well, nvm. I'll just tell pops that i wanna save the chance to be used another time when i have plans...

And, can you believe it, yesterday, when i was on the way out from Malaysia in popsie's car, feeling really lethargic and sick, the only song that kinda soothes me is 'Together we will live forever- Clint Mansell' introduced by DomTan. Haha... It was so calming and i listened to it for the whole of the 1 hour trip out. It's a great piece, a great lullaby! Haha:) It kinda makes me wanna watch a piano concert...

My relatives are gonna head home now... It's only 4pm and i am yawning away... I wanna sleep but i also don't feel like sleeping... what i really really wanna do now, is to play the Sims!!! Stella!!! Lend me your sims to download!!! Its torturous to have to hear that your Sims have already given birth and here, I can't control a single animated figure to whoopee and get pregnant:) Lend it to me.... please...

Well, more people are filling in now... I kinda got to go now to entertain them. Ya know, with me out there, they have more topics to talk about, such as," Wow! Charmaine's grown bigger", " you gotta watch your diet ahh...", "Aiyo... Don't grow fatter anymore or you'll have a hard time slimming down...". Plus, my relatives will also gain laughter as my older grandaunts call me "Charmee" which is if translated in English, Fried noodles...

So, i gotta go now to "entertain" my relatives now...
Happy New Year peeps!

Hippo's happy!

2008-01-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

School's been great!

4E6 is really bonded and matured compared to last year. Everyone contributes and helps out. Take for example the CNY decorations, almost evryone stayed back to chip in and help out. It's simply amazing! Even if we don't win this year because people think that 4e1's one is better, i personally feel that e6 is already the biggest winner because the class did the decorations together ( people like Dom and Yen and Mengfei- not taking art, but helped out in painting, tried blending colours. Koh Bon- with his sore swollen toe, stayed back to help too although he played soccer as well( i am awed that he can play with his elephant toe!) and we are really united. 4e6 is no longer the notorious class and i can see the light ahead for us! I LOVE MY CLASS!!!

I am also really happy! Life's been busy but great! Friends are my greatest strength givers and they really helped me out hell lots. People like Karina, Dom, Yen, Stel, Jo, Ant, Kai... Some to name, they are all great darlings and i love love love love love them soooooo much! You guys have been of great help and motivation! THANK YOU ALL!!!

Have been super busy last week, celebrated Dom's birthday. This week's been cramped up by tests too ! School's been suffocating me and i haven't gotten my New Year clothes!!! I am so gonna get them this week hopefully with Stel. Am also going for art shopping with Ms Chia and they arty farty peeps, as well as NAFA open house with Dom! Whoo! So much to do!!!

Kinda solved the shitty situation at home and finally, things are back on track again. Luckily for that, otherwise, i would never be able to breathe and life would be even more stressed up. let's hope this will be the final time it happens, although it's impossible cuz they always give me such shitty problems and i am expected to be the friggin middle man to sort it out...

It's a wonder how such an irony can happen. What's even more ironical is that its the similar situation with similar sequences! It's difficult to handle particularly cuz the person involved doesn't know anything and there's no way i can ever tell... I don't wanna take the blow again and i know it's impossible so i am gonna psycho and make myself stop it all. After all, why bother holding on when it's not gonna happen? The actions done and words said made things worse but i can't blame you cuz you did it all with no intention... Will things ever take a turn?

2008-01-12T15:39:00.000+08:00

It's raining now... And after experiencing 2 weeks of torment in school, with all the drama going on around, i think 2008 is going to be a tough ride.

Day after day, i have to stay back for extra lessons and stuff. It is energy draining... I am so exhausted. Senior life is taking a toll on me.

Did i ever mentioned that i love rainy days? I really love them! In fact, i love playing under the rain. Rainy days cause me to reflect and i sure do have a lot of refections in my mind now.

I miss my friends. One by one, they are leaving. Tomorrow is Nana's birthday. This is the first year since 9 years ago that i am not gonna celebrate her birthday with her. I wanna do so much for her but here i am and the distance between is so huge. All i can do is perhaps call her and wish her.

I never thought of this day to come. Whatever i have done to hurt you, i am sorry. But seeing you happy with others also proves the fact that this is a better decision and step to take.

I can only wish and hope for my friends that they will forever be happy and safe. I swear to never forget any single one as the impact is so strong. They all played important roles in my life and i enjoyed every moment spent with them be it good or bad. I am super afraid that i have to experience another loss. I just wanna chill out...

2008-01-01T02:48:00.000+08:00

Been a long long long time since i came on. Its the 1st day of a new year! And it's a start of a new beginning. 2007 has been a great year for me to grow up and yes, i did grow up. Hell i did.

My new year resolutions:

To be happier
To make more people happy
To give more love
To give more help to others
To study hard and earn that freakin ticket
To shed some weight
To treasure evryone around me
To become a better person

Yeah. I guess these are the few points for me to resolute by.
Anyways, gotta go now to read Bian Cheng... Gotta finish it in order to be able to do the work...
Ciao.
Happy New Year!

2007-12-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

Updates again!

It's really super cold here!!! I shoulda gotten winter wear! Went for the tours and it was all so great!!! I simply love Aussie! Gonna probably either go for the penguin trip tomorrow or i will go shopping...

Anyway, pops and mom and sis will be goin back the day after tomorrow. Then i'll be all alone with Nana... Can't wait!!!

All my friends are back in S'pore now i guess, but they are probably out... Miss ya guys lots!!! But i'll be back soon too on next Monday and i'll be able to see ya guys again...

Am gonna go now cuz i gotta call Nana... Bye peeps!

2007-12-07T18:41:00.000+08:00

Am currently blogging while in Aussie- Melbourne now... Gettin here via the internet cafe from my hotel... Just parted with Karina and it was so great to meet her again... We both didn't really change much i guess... She has the Rihanna hairstyle and she looks much prettier... She has a slang too!!!

Evrything here is super great... The weather has been rather chilly and i had to wear a coat out. The people here all looked really gorgeous as well! I can say that i am more attracted to the girls here rather than the guys, not cuz i am as lesbian or whatsoever, but it is rather the fact that the girls here all looks really really beautiful and they outshine the guys. They all have sharp chins, luscious hair, long eyelashes( which happens to be real!), sparkly eyeballs( those i would never wanna slap) and just a great dressing sense. They all wear shades out and they dress in a manner like we see in Laguna Beach and in MTV... It was just so perfect!!! They guys here are cute too! I mean, what can be better than hazelnut brown/ golden blonde hair and sharp noses and deep set eyes?.. I could go on all night just swooning about them... Haha...

Am gonna go for the half day tour tomorrow and after that, we'll be meeting Karina and Amanda again!!! Yippee!!! So i guess i'll see ya guys soon enough... Buh Bye!

2007-12-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

Wahaha!!! Am gonna leave for the airport in approx 30 mins time... Part of me is really excited but another part of me is really nervous, probably because i don't know what to anticipate over there... I am gonna see Karina for the first time in 11 months!!! What will happen when we meet, i really have no idea...But i guess we'll go back to being crazy as ever as usual!!!

I suddenly realised that i will be away from my S'pore friends for 11 days... Ugh... I will miss each and everyone hell lots!!!

People, if you are all reading this, just wanna tell you guys to take care and don't miss me much k? Haha... Will try to come online and blog if i can... Smiles!!!

2007-12-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

It's raining now... Wonder if it'll rain tomorrow when i am on board the plane... I sure hope it doesn't cuz i don't wanna experience any turbulence. Damn. I hate turbulences cuz they are scary and traumatising... I cannot even withstand roller coaster rides so if there is gonna be turbulences on the plane, i thnk i am gonna scream cuz i can't jump off the plane like if i am gonna jump off a roller coaster...

Anyway, i am having a busy busy day... Woke up in the morning due to an sms from Jk at around 7 plus and guess what, the message was to the wrong recipent... Grr... Haha... I kinda gotta shock cuz i thought they were only gonna come back tonight so i thought i was still dreaming. Then, i went back to sleep and woke up slightly later to get ready to meet Yunsheng and Shi Han... Showered, ate, packed, and before i was leaving my house, i got a call and the caller was Ck. I kinda didn't recognise his voice at first and only after he said hello twice, did i recognise who it was... The call kinda made me realise that i wasn't dreaming earlier in the morning and i actually made a mistake... Haha... Felt like such a blur sotong... Anyway, after the call, i left home to Toa Payoh... It was raining so heavily and now its still raining... Soaked pumps and a wet bag... It was a very wet situation and i almost wanted to drop the umbrella to play under the rain. But that would be a very crazy thing to do alone so i sorta just splashed and sploshed in the puddles to curb my childish desires...

Met Yunsheng to pass him his *secret thing and he gave me a small plushie from Thailand which has small magnets at its paws and it was so damn cute!!! I didn't expect him to buy me anything so i was rather stunned. He just doesn't seem to be so meticulous... haha... I am so gonna put the cute little creature on my countryroad bag... I even think i am gonna name it:) Then Shi Han came along and she passed me two china dolls- one for me and the other for Karina. They were both so cute... She also had a gift for Karina along with a card. There was also the camera that she supposedly wanted to lend me, however, eventually due to the mismatched size of my memory card and her camera, i couldn't borrow it.. We then proceeded to buy some essentials and after a short shopping around, i left for home and she left for her cousin's house.

Now i gotta pack my luggage soon. I haven't even touched anything and i am flying tomorrow... My luggage is rather big so i think i can pack my sis in it and send it in cargo. At least in this manner, i won't have to spend 7 hours in the plane with her... Haha... It suddenly dawned upon me that i am flying off but i haven't even packed a single thing.... I didn't even think of what to pack...

Argh,... I better go now to start my packing. Bye peeps!!!

2007-12-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

Wahaha!!! Yingru, I FOUND IT!!! Ain't i smart??? I didnt wanna cry at all but i guess at the last minute, when i read your secret blog, i was so touched i just cried... haha... Now its 1145pm, 15 minutes to Roo's plane taking off... BON VOYAGE MY DEAR!!! Actually, by the time you read this, i am already in Aussie and i bet you must be back in S'pore. Don't miss me too much. Go and catch up with your bestie... Really sorry that i cannot send you off k? Promise to call you when i am there!

And THANK YOU SO MUCH STELLA ANNE LOW FOR THE WONDERFUL GIFTS!!! I love it all so much!!! Thanks for lending me your memory cards and you camera as well!!! I swear to take good care of it all too!!!

And, Jo, i am not gonna forget you too!!! Am so touched you actually bought my X'mas gift already! But i am so sorry that i haven't gotten you yours k cuz i haven't gotten my pay... Will definitely buy your gum and your pressie and when i am back, we'll have some catchups too!!!

In Malaysia now, and thanks to my slow typing, it's 1205. Roo must be taking off and in the air with all the artsy fartsy peeps and Ms Sharon and Ms TanHP and ... Ms Ow.. Haha... Just wish that they will all have fun!

Bye!

2007-12-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

Yo Peeps!!!
Not been blogging again for a long time eh? That's cuz no one visits/ tags at my blog!!! Haha... Its also due to the fact whereby i have so much going on in my life!!! Life's getting me exasperated... Phew. At least i have some spare time now to enter a short post...

So, the major thing that has been getting me all buzzed up is mainly WORK! I have been working day and night, night and day. Now i know why adults groan and moan about having to go to work. Thats cuz it is so damn freaking boring!!! You just keep having stuff to do, so much so that it seems like you have no time to breathe. But i love my job cuz of the pay. Plus, my boss is really good to me, and so are my " colleagues"... Haha... I hope i get my pay soon so that i can go shopping for Christmas pressies soon!!! Wahaha!

Another thing that has been getting me stuffed up in my a**, is the reality of everyone going away to other countries. Stella went to HK, but she is back now, and that darling bought me stuff from HK!!! Love her man! Am gonna go meet her tomorrow to catch up and get the souvenirs and to pass her my art box. Haven't seen her for what seems to be a long time, so i really can't wait! Ck also went to Japan with his school. It was really a new experience for me when we packed his luggage for him... The fact that he is bringing such a huge luggage just still keeps me and Roo dumbfounded... But he tried to lessen his baggage and got rid of approx 4 tops. I borrowed a jacket of his to go to Aussie... So if you are reading, just wanna say thanks! Roo is also going to go to Japan tomorrow! She is going on the Art exchange program of ZHSS. I was supposed to go over too, but the dates clashed with the Aussie trip, so i am not able to go... But its ok. I feel so guilty that i can't go send her off cuz i gotta go to Malaysia with my dad... Just hope that she enjoys her trip despite her negative thinking at times. I am the last to go... Going to Aussie soon on Thursday! AM GONNA MEET UP WITH NANAYU ( KARINA) AFTER SUCH A LONG LONG LONG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahaha! I cannot wait! I miss her hell lots and i am gonna bring a limited edition Stitch puzzle over to her plus a huge Pooh Bear! Yadada... Just wish to fly over asap!

Also collected my glasses today... I have to wear it practically 24/7. Except for the time when i sleep or shower... I hate it cuz i am so not used to wearing glasses and i find it such a hassle and it is so uncomfortable... The worse thing is that my right eye is perfectly in tip top condition with no degree, but my left eye is so called blind cuz if i don't wear glasses, i can still see very clearly and thats becuz i am shutting off my left eye nerve and only my right eye is seeing things... So my glasses is made in a way that the left lens has a degree and my right lens is just a piece of glass. And Roo says that i look like an owl when i wear the glasses cuz although it is frameless, there is still a metal bar on top of the frame and although it has no contact whatsoever with my lenses, it still makes me seem like an owl... Damn... Shoulda chosen to have worn contacts except that if i have done that, i only have to wear it on my left eye... Sigh...

Luckily life is keeping me busy, so that i have not much free time to think of those nerve wrecking and soul saddening stuff... The wait for approx 2 years might be/ might not be worth it... I have no idea...

2007-11-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i came back on eh?

Went for monitor board camp on Monday and it lasted till yesterday. It was held at NACLI campsite. Before i went for the camp, i heard of how great and how nice NACLI is. When i went there, it was really cool! The whole place was like a resort and the rooms were really nice. it didn't feel like it was a camp. Evrything was so relaxing and we did things at our own pace. The only thing i hated about the camp was that we had to climb up Kent Ridge hill several times and that really killed me.
We had Mr Danny Chong again as our trainer and his wife, Auntie June, was his helper as usual.
The room i stayed in with my roomies, ( Brenda, Serene and Jasmine) was really cosy and cool... The air-con was super cold and the bed was super nice to sleep on. We had our own cupboards in the room to hang our clothes and the shower had a heater, so we showered with hot water. It was really nice and cool and my roomies and i we're all like, "everything must be neat, boil water, no shoes beyond this point..." We are a bunch of crazy girls man.
I also managed to make a lot of new friends. The Monitor board juniors are a bunch of hyper dears and those my age ( Lijun, Tze Kiat, Wei Ting.. some to name) are even crazier. We learnt how to serve through this camp and we went to Stamford's Primary on the second day to serve the kids. It was really cool and fun!

But through the camp, i had a constant sense of worry and guilt towards this special someone who has made a mark in my life. Because of my mom's stupid doings, it has caused trouble and unhappiness to this person. If the person is reading this now, i just wanna say that i am really really really sorry! Please don't be angry no more... I know it was a really idiotic thing to do, but i had no idea why my mom went to say that. I don't want the friendship to end here like that. I have no guts to call you cuz i have no idea if you are still angry, still mad. So if you have cooled down, at least text me or IM me to let me know k? I am really really really very sorry... Please don't be angry...

2007-11-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

When an elastic band has been stretched to the limit, it will plainly snap. When a building has got too much "weight" to handle, it will simply collapse. Now that things are all turning out like that, I am just gonna shut up and break away...

2007-11-04T23:20:00.001+08:00

So much to chunk out now cuz so much happened...

My nieces came from Philippines last week and yeah, it is kinda late to blog about it now, but nevertheless...
Stephanie and Kristel. I am so glad that we are relatives. They are the coolest!!! They can talk about everything and anything under the sun. They are cool optimists and they joke and laugh and talk and think positive. I can relate to them as i am kinda of an optimist and a crappy joker too. We sorta share the same dress sense too and we think in a westernised way... So glad to have more bananas come join me! Even my dad was like, " You guys together= crazy monkeys who are too positive and preach the same optimistic stuff... Blah blah..."
Throughout the days that they were here, we ate Chicken rice, satay, popiah, rojak, Soup restaurant, Roasted duck, Char siew, Shao rou, dim sum, laksa, hokkien noodles, chilli crab ( sinful!!!), white sliced fish hor fun, tako pachi, tori Q, ya kun kaya bread, curry puff... These are only those i could think of. There are really a lot more we tasted but i just cannot remember... We drank mostly bandung and iced milk tea and chinese tea, cuz Steph and Kris just adored those drinks... they loved these drinks so much that mom bought a huge bottle of Rose syrup and carnation milk for them to bring back to make their own bandung...
It was really fun throughout the days they came and i really cannot wait for the next time we meet again either here in Singapore or when we go over to manila.

School's boring... Studying everyday... I have no mood to study at all as all my other friends in other schools are having their holidays. I dread waking up every morning especially now that it's the rainy season. Grr... I love rainy days and i love sleeping in on rainy days... But i have gotta go to school...

It's raining now... I love rainy days, especially rainy nights as i am a night person and rainy nights are dark, and they seem to shut me out of the world... The rain is so noisy and becuz so, it allows me to be in my own world. I am in my own world now, so alone and shut out.

I am not sad, just confused.
I am perfectly alright, that's what i think.
I wanna cry, but i guess i am numb.
I wanna scream and get angry at you, but i just cannot bring
myself to.
I understand the outcome, but can i not accept
it?
I know i have to face up to reality, but can i choose not
to?

Now that it's all said and done, i feel the ache. I don't want
this to be the outcome, but i guess it's really over... I wish that i stopped it
long ago, but i can only blame myself for being such a fool to hold on myself. I
blame no one but myself. I give up. I want to let the rain take everything away.
If growing up was so difficult, i would rather not grow up at all... Tears
have flowed, words were expressed, actions were carried out... But
the pain's not cured but in fact gets inflamed... When will it heal?

The rain just never seems to bring, the joy i feel the same,
everlasting pain of the lost remains. My heart can't seem to learn
to part, the hole you left your mark, all that i dreamed of now it
seems so stuck. There's nothing left for me to do now but give in. If you gave
me one chance to tell you, how my heart was feeling, i would sing to you and
tell you i won't live my life without you. If you gave me one chance to tell you
how i was feeling, i would hold your hands and look in your eyes, and you know
i'll never let you go... And I hate how much I love you boy, but I just can't
let you go, and I hate that I love you so... One of these days maybe your magic
won't affect me, but no one in this world knows, so you'll probably always have
a spell on me... Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the
one,to build me up and tear me down, like an old abandoned house. Well, I never
saw it coming, and I should've started running, A long, long time ago...

2007-11-01T20:29:00.000+08:00

Plenty of things happened these days. Good or bad, sweet or sour, i sorta experienced it all...

2007-10-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

It's late now... But i shall revive this blog... So i am just gonna say that i will be blogging about my times soon... Yeah. That's it. Super lame...

2007-10-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long long time... Now i have so much to blog about... Shall go about this with a sequence.

Firstly, i shall wish Darling Stella a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! The girl turned 15 on last Thursday. We went to Fuji Ice Palace to skate and poor Joneh who skated for the first time, she was so cool about it. Desite all the sufferings she went through, she stayed there on the ice and i can say i am so proud of her!!! It was a rather empty rink that day and Stella and i was so excited cuz we got so much space to skate about. Went into a neoprint booth after that and we camwhored instead so we can save 3 buckeroos each. Had lotsa fun.

On Friday, WeiLing, Siew woon(my long lost kindergarten mate), Chun Kiat and me, we all went to Orchard and Marina Square and the Esplanade. Wanted so badly to buy two tops at Topshop and i practically went gaga. But i did'nt want to spend the money and i was also going broke so i could on try it on and did not manage to purchase it. Was really reluctant but i guess i just cannot have all that i want in life. It was really fun but we were all really tired too. Before that, we met up at Wei Ling's house to eat fried rice. It was my first time going to Wei Ling's house and her house is so majorly long. I swear that you can train running laps in her house. Haha...

When we were at the Singapore river, Karina called me and due to the fact that i know that her dad's restaurant was nearby and hearing her voice, i just felt so overwhelmed and started crying... I really miss the dear girl so so so much!!!

Saturday, went to school in the morning to help out for open house. Went home after that and afer resting and bathing, dressed up as i was gonna go out with Ck and Roo. We went to Bugis and Roo shopped for clothes. That girl bought a dress shirt and a pair of bleached skinnys. It was uber cool and fun but it also caused my foot to go sore... Went to eat at Long John's after that and i ate my first Long John meal- grilled chickn with rice and fries and cheese dip and a chocolate cream pie. It was delicious and thinking of it now makes my stomach growl...

Yesterday, i went to Chinatown with Roo and Ck again to purchase the teardrop crystals for aunty mimi. Gonna make two pairs of earrings for her as she wanted.

Went to school today and its back to studying again. Woke up with a bad cold and throughout the day, my nose was like a drippy tap and i was sneezing and tearing the whole day. Now much nose hurts throat itches and my eyes are super tired.

Before i go off, this special dedication is for Joneh: Be strong girlfriend! Its not worth getting upset. Give you a quote quoted from Yenling. " If he is stupid enough to not want you, then be smart enough to forget and let him go." There are many other better ones out there. We are still young. Don't be dejected in life cuz of 1 bad egg. I will always be here for you so don't give up!!!

2007-10-15T03:15:00.000+08:00

Currently am in Malaysia... Had to come in to get the goddess of mercy necklace from the temple tomorrow morning... If we didn't come in tonght, popsie would scream our heads off our necks.

Roo and I went to the gym today. Worked out and beads of sweat trickled down my sides of my cheeks. But as there was air- con in the gym, it was ok and i felt so proud of myself for having burned some calories. Went shopping at J8 afterwards and ate a lot of delicious stuff, such as sausage cheese crepe, chee cheong fun, double dark and milk chocos, marshmallows and gummies... Yummy!!!

Went to dinner with Uncle Kee and Aunty Jo and Momsie, Popsie, Sis and Yingru joined along. It was an interesting meal as Anuty Jo and Uncle Kee are both great jokers. I tell you, they are super humorous and they are just like big grownup kids. Roo, Sis and I was laughing our ass off for approximately 3/4 of the whole meal time.

After dinner, Sis, Roo and I went to the playground to play and chat. It was quality catch up time and the feeling of no having no curfew, it was GREAT!!!

I don't know if we are able to rush out tomorrow afternoon and we might probably be going to Jk's house to play. I wanna play with his dog!!! We'll see how it goes tomorrow... For now, Nights everyone!

2007-10-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

I practically slacked and wasted the whole day today. Slept and slept and slept... The weather was so good and cool and the sky was a warm tone of pale brown, thus causing the sleeping streak in me to strike. Actually, i really did'nt so much today. I feel like such a slacker... So lazy and still so lazy. And guess what, i am still freaking tired and sleepy... I think i am gonna go sleep soon, or maybe not...

Wanna go out with Roo and Dom tomorrow. But i have no idea if popsie and momsie will ever allow...

Super sick and tired...

2007-10-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went cycling at East Coast today with Roo, WeiLing and Chun Kiat. The renting of the bike costs $6 for approximately 2 hours, which to me, is an expensive amount cuz i have a bike at home and i feel so stupid to pay $6 for a 2 hour ride. I swear that if i could have brought my bike to school and on the bus to East Coast, i would have done it. Haha... But it was worth it, cuz after all, it was major fun time and i thoroughly enjoyed myself. Going to the beach on a weekday at late noon, is kinda a new experirnce to me. There wasn't many people there and it was kinda quiet and it felt like we had the whole beach to ourselves. The sun was scorching hot and the sea was calm. It seems dirty to me too... But the overall view with the orange light from the sun and the view ahead where there were big cargo ships ahead along with some small ships, and the line where the sea and sky meets, and the constant time to time overhead flying of the planes, it was spectecular in a manner... The breeze from the sea also took away all my troubles when i was there.

On the way as we were walking to the beach, we passed by a house where there were about 4-5 guinea pigs running lose on the green lawn. Sometimes, i just cannot help but to wish that i can be an animal too. At least, i do not have to bother with studies, conflicts, relationships...

Its gran's birthday tomorrow. Although i know that she will never come view my blog, and even if she does, she would'nt understand a single thing, i just wanna wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2007-10-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! I am so freaking embarassed!!! I did'nt know that they were there at that point of time. I wanna kill myself for making such an irreversible STUPID huge mistake!!! I think i am gonna just kill myself...

If after this, you still don't do anything, i am just really gonna shut it all off and forget it all. After all, i know that you cannot possibly say much about this...

And facial HURTS! The (super nice) lady had to do her job and she was squeezing my outbreaks like nobody's business. I was practically screaming like nobody's business too. And the call from Yingru made things worse. The reaction from me towards that call, practically shocked everyone in the parlour and the two facial ladies rushed to me. It was funny...

And this is to TYR: If my mom says you have talent, it really means you have. Trust me... Even if you don't trust me, trust my mom!!! You've got style and talent so don't be afraid to show off. Stop suspecting your ability and go for it k? YOU'VE GOT FLAIR FOR ART!!!

I guess i shall end off here cuz i need to go and knock my head against the wall for the stupid thing i've done. I am never gonna make stupid comments on the computer ever again...

A short post after a long time.

2007-10-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

I can finally say this. " THE EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!" And following that line will be " I am gonna be grounded when i get my results back..."

It's 3 am now and i am still awake cuz i took a long nap ( emphasize on long) in the afternoon.

Just watched Desperate Housewives season 3 rerun and i absolutely adore that show. The person who came up with the whole plot and storyline is super smart and unpredictable. It is an impeccable show and i simply love it!

Went to school yesterday with Roo to take the Art exam. People like Stella, Jonehma, Anthia, Weiling.... All of them did not have to go to school to take any examinations so they could sleep in late... How i envy them for that. But i guess i did'nt mind having to go to school today for art as i guess art is the only subject i was well prepared for and gave my all to. Was supposed to go out with Anthia and Jolene after that but Stella had smth else on in the end and i had to rush in to malaysia. It was only at a final moment that the trip to enter was cancelled. Sorry to Jo and Anthia.

On Sunday night, Weiling and Ck came over at 11 plus to watch HSM2. Watching it again made me realise that it is really a much better improvement compared to HSM1. I was painting my final piece as i watched the show.

Later in the morning at about 7 am, i am gonna wake up and call Annette. I am gonna go to the gym with Annette cuz we don't wanna (as Annette quotes) look like balls of fat. We are gonna work it out and burn some calories. Turns out that Ck and mamaloo are gonna go too. But before going to the gym, Annette is gonna come to take a look at Pervis. She has never seen a chinchilla in her whole life before so she wants to come have a first look at one. I actually feel quite honoured that her first preview of a chin, will be my chin... Haha...

After gym, i am gonna go with Ck and Roo to blast in soundproof rooms. I have never done this before so i am holding my reigns... We'll just have to see how it goes tomorrow..

I am gonna go sleep now in order to have the energy to run tomorrow so that i will not fall asleep on the treadmill tomorrow... Goodnight. Or rather i should say, Good morning!

Exam Period!!!

2007-09-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

Damn. I am so bloody tired. Have been studying and studying and studying. Like a crazy hippo... Why? Cuz the EOYs are coming!!! It is gonna start from Monday all the way to Next Monday ( with the exemption of weekends). Everyone will finish their exams on Friday but i have an extra day cuz i take art. Super sick...

I don't even have any freaking idea on what to draw for art. The topic given is so vague and i simply can't come up with anything at all. I think i am gonna flunk everything. I cannot get any freaking formulaes into my hippo pea sized brain. I have been sucked dry of my brain juice! Argh! So pissed cuz i seem to be doing so much but yet i cannot remember all that i am supposed to. I swear that after my exams, if i see any single Chem, Physics, Amath and Emath questions, i am gonna blend it with milk and drink it. Ok... That seems gross. I shall blend it and force it down the throat of the person who showed me the question. Yes. That;s what i am gonna do.

I have no time to call anyone or do anything. I have'nt contacted Karina for about 2-3 weeks and i am gonna die. Feel sooooooooooooooo sorry towards her. The poor girl has been waiting for my call and attempting to call me, but i never seem to be around or to have any spare time. I am so sorry Karina!!!! I promise to call you asap. PROMISE!

I reckon i will be able to come on for the whole of the next week, cuz i will be mugging. Only by mugging and scoring, will i be able to get my "freedom" and my "rewards" after. I am gonna go off now cuz i am going out tomorrow- school in the morning, shopping for art stuff in the afternoon, mugging for the rest of the day...

2007-09-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

Had a real tiring day at school today... Had a lot of maths lessons and thinking of it currently makes my eyes wanna simply shut. Tomorrow, we still have maths ssp in the morning and gosh... I am SUPER TIRED!!! Plus, there is still some stupid concert in the esplanade at night that we have to go for... Zzzz...

Went to Jonehma's house today after school today. Met JK Rowling, Jason and Ck on the way to the Mrt. I could'nt see clearly due to the eye- blinding sunlight and felt grumpy due to the heat... But i could recognise them, so i guess it means that i have a little of a photographic memory... Crap...

Baked Chocolate chip cookies and i have to pass Kuang Jun his heart shaped cookie done by Yuting. So lovey dovey... Sigh... So jealous... Met up with Wei Ling to go to the post office as well as to the library to pass Roo and peeps their cookies... Wei Ling and Roo had to gang up against me to embarass me... Grrrr.... Haha. But it was funny and entertaining although i was the one embarassed. Roo was also embarassed today... Damn a** funny!!!

Wei Ling told me something that got me all happy again. Now i am stuck on whether to let go or not... I don't wanna, but i am advised to. Some things makes me wanna, while sometimes, it makes me wanna hold on... Argh!!! I am confused... I shall not think about it anymore for now...
Gotta sleep now cuz i have a long and packed day tomorrow... How i wish i can be like the little kids downstairs, playing with candles and lightsticks and lanterns... Super innocent fun...

A normal day with a random post.

2007-09-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Just came back home and roo is here beside me, singing to "Superman"~ Five for Fighting. I washed her hair for her just now ( she had her clothes on!!!) and she is like a cat~ Even a drop of water on her face or shirt gets her all screaming. I ended up looking like the one who got a bath.

When we were on the way home, we saw Stellaellaella jogging under the mrt track. This small girl is so damn determined and she really carries out what she says. I respect her for this hell lots! You go gal!

Roo bought me a meal today and come to think of it, it is sorta the first proper meal she bought me. Was supposed to study tomorrow with Stella cuz Roo has another study grp to go with. She asked me where i was going and so i replied: AMK Library. Then she started laughing out cuz guess what..... They are going there as well. Can't believe it!!! How on earth can it be so coincidential? Usually, i don't go to AmK Library cuz roo says she can't study there. And now, when i am going there without her, she is going with them. Arghhhhh.... But i don't really mind actually, until Stella heard that so many people will be there, she wants to study alone. I wanna slap all their eyeballs!!!! Haha...

And this paragraph goes out to Dominic.
I really don't know why you are angry with me... Can you please tell me??? I am really sorry for upsetting you... SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you not get angry at me please??? I am really sorry...

It ended...

2007-09-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

Had a long and tired day at school today, especially after taking the sucky medicines. Was trying to fight and withstand the sleepybug.

Manged to have time to chat with WeiLing after school today before HCL ssp and i really realised that i should stop it. I tore up the drawing. To tell the truth, i could'nt bear to do so and when i did it, i could feel my heart aching. Like really aching, really sour... It was seriously hurting. Tears almost rolled down my cheeks but as Yihang and Weiling and Yitong were present, i did not want to break down. In fact, WeiLing was the one who screamed when she realised i tore it and Yihang was also going like NOOOOOO!!!! When i walked home alone after sending Weiling home, i could'nt contain it anymore and BAM! Was tearing while walking and i felt so stupid as the Deyi Sec people were walking along the same pathway, i was trying so hard to look normal and breathe normally.

I figured out that only by doing so can i start to stop it. I may be contradicting myself, but i hope that i am doing the right thing.

A short small post.

2007-09-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

Firstly, i wanna wish Kor Woong a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! This darling girl was my friend since 4 years old and she is a darling to me too!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

I had to continue to play host to my cousin today and i brought her to AMK Hub. Spent a lot of money just buying stuff, especially food... Saw the small Kim San Soon pig and decided to get it again as i think that having a large one as well as the small one is a very cute thing. Will prolly get roo to name it Junior Hope, but i know she would want it to be Junior JL. I bought new earrings, hairclips and a green pouch. As well as a skateboard keychain for Dom Tan. Don't ask me why i bought that keychain, cuz i also don't know why.

Then i left my cousin to go on her own as i went to meet Roo and Ck. I had to go to the doctor's and Roo accompanied me along. We then studied at Macs and now i am so tired...

And i really don't know what i want. I tried real hard to listen deep down, but i seriously have no idea. I like you. I know i do... But i don't wanna be a fool no more...

Busy day

2007-09-16T02:57:00.000+08:00

Had a very busy day today!!! Woke up late for maths ssp today but still went to eat MACs with roo. It rained and i had a great time playing and splashing in the puddles. Roo even allowed me to splash her!!! I tried to teach her on how to tap in the puddles, but she just cannot do it. She does'nt understand how i could have fun in puddles and with rain... I guess only childlike people like me will enjoy such stuff.

Roo then went out shopping with Ck today and as for me, my cousin came out from Malaysia and i brought her around. But before that, i had to go to school for the mid-autumn thingy and KaiWen and i had to paint for everyone to see. It was fun! We talked a lot and i even joked with the VIP and the principal. Yingyin and Anthia also came to look for us after their duty and they painted ms Tay and we practically went crazy. Mr Poh also went crazy with me. I love my teachers!!! After the whole thing ended, Jiang lao shi rewarded us with chocolates. This made me love my teachers more! Oh, i also love KaiWen's mom. She is so fun and cool! I salute her!

I brought my cousin to the esplanade/ Singapore River. My sis, my cousin and i went out and only returned home at 12.30 am. I went around in my school uniform and this time, i did not give a damn about my behaviour. It is time for me to loosen up, get wild and try to stop thinking for at least some time. I sat at the bridge where everyone was walking and i did'nt give a damn that i was wearing my school unform. I had to do something for myself once in a while. Took hell lot of pictures and uploaded them on friendster. So go check them out if u wanna.

Telling the truth, i was thinking about it the whole day. Stuff WL told me did'nt help but made it worse. I am a stupid fool and i gotta stop. It is time to move on.

Crazy me!

2007-09-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

Have been busy this week. School reopened and we had lots to do. Mainly preparing fo the EOYs.

Really thought back on a lot of stuff and i went to listen to the songs i have not been listening to for quite some time. Am into the song ''Fall To Pieces'' by AvrilL as it really depicts what i am feeling.

I looked away

Then I look back at you

You try to say

The things you can't undo

If I had my way

I'd never get over you

Today's the day

I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall

Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

Cuz I'm in love with you

You're the only one

I'd be with till the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the star

Back into your arms

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

Cuz I'm in love with you

Wanna know who you are

Wanna know where to start

I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel

Wanna know what is real

I wanna know everything, everythingI'm in love with you

Cuz I'm in love with you

And I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

Cuz I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

Cuz I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

Kudos to Avril.

I have so much to say, so much to explain, but i am at a loss on how to portray my opinion. This seems to be the big problem i have. I can never seem to be able to get to the point through short and sweet sentences. And even if i managed to finish saying my sentences (usually after a very very long time), people seem to misunderstand what i am saying. I think i need to go for English classes. It does not help when i am already in a spot where i have to think of how to put my words across and by chasing me to speak faster and make it clear, I CAN"T DO IT! Argh... Never mind.

I think i am going crazy. Roo says i am going crazy. But i don't know... I don't know why i am reacting this way. To me, i think i am perfectly normal, but roo says otherwise. I think i gotta calm down and stop being hyper cuz she is getting pissed at me for being so hyper. But i am hyper cuz i am free in my thoughts, not becuz of **. I am sorry if my actions and words caused hurt to you in any sorta way...

Dom says lost love is better than unrequited love. I need help!!! I don''t know anything anymore... I am brainwashed.

I shall just be more mellow and calm and take each day as it comes. At least, in this way, people won't get angry with me anymore.

Brand new start.

2007-09-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

Have'nt been blogging for a few days already. Since i have the free time now, it's time to put that keyboard to work again.

Since roo says i don't paragraph, and it is difficult to read, i shall try to paragraph to allow her to read easily. She is granny roo~ therefore cannot read easily.

Anyway, I have been thinking about the question for days and have been getting everyone's opinion. It might seem kinda stupid and extra to some, but i certainly got a lot of inspiration eventually.

Orange Julia gave me the best piece of advice and i am greatly inspired by her. what she said does make a lot of sense. From this incident, i can conclude that getting advice from someone older but is still young, is a very good thing as it helps a lot.

The one week hols is over. I would say i spent my time doing stuff that i was supposed to but i also managed to get a break. It was time spent equivently. the only regret i have is that i did'nt get to sort my thoughts out clearly and i DID"NT CALL KARINA!!! ( To Karina: SORRY!!! But i still love ya! ) I was kinda sick during the hols and am down with tonsilitis. Kinda lost my voice due to the inflamed tonsils. As it was tiring me out, i took naps almost everyday, except for when i am not at home, and so was'nt able to call Karina, as by the time i wake up, it would be the wee hours in Australia.

Another thing, I CAN GO TO AUSTRALIA!!! My dad was kinda pleased with my performance during the hols as i sorta behaved myself, i guess... Yippee! I can visit karina!!! Super elated!!

School reopened today and everything's back to normal... Off to a fresh start today. In class, during Amaths, R, D and Y, passed their new set of "preserved ants" to me. I totally freaked out!!! It was not only disgusting, but also an act of cruelty. Imagine that 15 ants having to die just because they think it is fun to kill them like that. I know that they did'nt have the intention of killing them because they are sadists or what, but i think that every life on earth, be it an ant or a great white shark, they have the right to live on till they die. Hope that they can just stop it as although those ants irks me off, i feel so sorry for them that their life is just wasted like that.

Actually, there is nothing much happening so far. just that i have to start mugging for the EOYs and sort out my thoughts and come to a decision and move on. The rest, i shall leave it to fate... before i end, i shall leave a quote from whereby i translated from the chinese homework given by Ginger. It goes like this: " Don't wait for miracles to happen. Only by making your own miracles, will you succeed in getting them." Shall i make my miracle?

Sick... Again...

2007-09-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

I am back! Realised i've been blogging everyday for the past few days. It's a miracle, considering the fact that i laugh at Stella in the past about blogging excessively. I think i blog to vent frustrations and tell you all a secret, i blog cuz i love the sound of the keys when they are moving up and down under my fingers. haha... I am silly...
I think i am so dead now. My head is so hot and heavy. My eyes are so droopy, despite the fact that i took a long nap. I cannot taste anything or smell anything and my ears, neck and practically every part of my body is aching. I am running a fever and damn... Going to fall sick again... My nose is like a watertap and it just can't stop flowing. I think i just used up many trees due to the fact that i have to clear the "mess'' of what the tap is causing.
I am ok today. Went to school in the early morn for guzheng and the new song is so nice!!! After that, i went to AMK HUB with Stella and Camelia to study, or rather, do homework. Yesterday, i went out with mamaloo to orchard cineleisure to watch Secret and purchase pressies. I also managed to play mamaloo and even Chunkiat. I was lying to mamaloo 2 days ago, saying that FR and a korean guy will be coming along with us. Ok, perhaps i should start from the start. Mamaloo wanted this pig from the Korean drama serial, ''My Name is Kim San Soon." When we had tution that night, roo was so sad as there was no stock of the pig plushie anywhere we know of anymore. She was crying so badly for this and at that time, i had already actually reserved the pig from More Than Words. It was the last piece in stock. I could'nt bear to see roo crying but i wanted to give her a surprise so i actually managed to hide it from her.. Thats how the story of a Korean guy coming with us to the movies was formed. It was damn funny. I can actually prank someone!!! Mamaloo told Chunkiat about the outing and he also bought the story. Eventually when she knew that it was all only a lie, she was so shocked and the expression on her face was one in a million. Really comical looking. When we met up with CK at the end of the day, even after knowing that i gave the pig to roo as a surprise, he still asked, so hows the trip with the Korean guy. Haha... I think i am good. I actually managed to fool 2 people. Thats a great accomplishment as i have never been able to carry stuff like that out. I am sorry for making you cry for nothing but i guess it was all worth.
Before i end my post, i wanna wish CAMELIA and BEATRICE a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Sucky day.

2007-09-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

I am so troubled now... Many things are going through my mind now and i am at a loss of what to do. I am sorry if this post sounds emo...

I cannot help it. I cannot forget. I am falling deep. I thought it would be easier after such a long time, but no, i am wrong. It is getting trickier day by day. Know the feel of wanting something badly? It is a sucky feeling. All i want is to shut myself out but why can't i even have that? Went to watch secret today and the love portrayed was so sweet and innocent. Roo asked me to be like that lead actress and just ask openly. If only it was all so easy. I cannot do it... Dom also said, "No one's worth it. You only wait, because it's worth waiting, not because the person's worthy. Wait if you love, lose if you don't. Or you'll lose yourself... " I think i am losing myself cuz i don't know what to do...

Also, Girl, please... I am begging you... Don't give up. Don't go. I cannot bear to see or even hear you being so troubled. You know i feel so hopeless when i always cannot help you? I can only watch you by the side and see you suffer. I don't know what else to do. I pray sincerely for your life to be easier but here you are giving up. It hurts to see you give up. I have been trying so hard to change your perspective but to you, everything is still negative. I don't want the day to come. I don't want it nearing. I don't want it at all. Everytime you say that you are going, tears will start to well up and here i am shouldering your stress, there you are trying to escape. I am not reprimanding you, but i really don't know how to go about this anymore. Whatever i say, you will not listen. If you know you will let me down, then don't do it. You don't wanna drag * into this but it will in turn get me hurt. I don't know what to say anymore cuz you will never listen. And when you read this, your reply would be " Don't bother. Since you know i won't listen, which is really what i would do, you shall just carry on with your life and we will just end this here. No matter what you say, i will eventually not take in. I know it is unfair to you, but pls, i really cannot face up to the facts, the people around me, the society." Girl, saying sorry to me and feeling regretful towards me ain't gonna help matters. It will also not make me feel any better. Time can heal all wounds, but some wounds leave scars. Continuing will only add more stress to you and make you feel worse.

I wanna escape from everything. I don't wanna face up to anything. If i could, i wanna shut myself out as well. Relationships are hurting be it whatever the type is. I don't wanna feel anymore... I am better off alone...

A roach interrupted me!

2007-09-05T03:37:00.000+08:00

Omg! There's a big fugly brown roach in the room with me now!!! I am bringing the keyboard far away with me as if not, i will be very near to that friggin creature. The feeling now is like as if there are a million ants on me and i am practically squirming in my chair... I can see the long feelers feeling about and it is really gross. Although they are not as frightening as ants, they are equally frightening when near as their speed is much faster compared to an ant. THIS ONE CAN FLY!!! AND IT IS FRIGGIN NEAR! Can you imagine the amount of fear in me now? As i am typing, it is inching its way slowly downwards. I cannot concentrate as i have to look out for it. The last thing i would want now is for that "cute" xiao qiang to come near me. Man... I want my knight in shining armour to come help me grab it by its feelers and rid it by releasing it outside. HELP!!!!!!!
Meanwhile, while praying for the never going to happen to happen and for the happening to not happen, i shall blog about my day. Came out from Malaysia at around 1 plus and i slacked about as usual. Went on the internet to search for something and i could'nt get it as it was out of stock everywhere. Searched for about 1 hour and called 4 places. Beginning to get real pissed and sis was laughing at me for being so silly. Asked her to help me think of other alternatives but all she can do was mock at me. In the end, i also did'nt know how, a place came to mind and i decided to try it out for the last time. Sis was like saying maybe it might have what i am looking for, so "ta daa" i went to try and guess what? Whoo hoo. Perserverance does pay! Omg!!! That damn roach sprinted towards me and i jumped! Then it made a u-turn and headed out under the door. What a close shave. I HATE ROACHES! Anyway, as i was saying before i was interrupted by that brown live creature, ya, perserverance does pay and there was one last piece. 1 LAST PIECE!!!! How lucky can i be? Of course i tried to hide my excitement from the person over the phone but i failed like always. My voice went 5 octaves higher i guess and i was like " can i reserve that? I wanna reserve that. Please reserve that for me..." I think that lady on the receiver must be thinking this girl crazy. But can you imagine that feel of finally getting something for having searching so long? Its damn awesome! I am going to collect it tomorrow!!!
Had tuition today and when Julia came, i was screaming as i was running in the room to hide tofu doll. Hid it under the blankies and came out to open the door. I was telling Julia to not touch anything and Roo and Julia were laughing at me as i was so paranoid. Guess i really was comical to them. When we eventually passed her the doll, Julia was laughing like crazy. She behaved like a 3 year old toddler who has just gotten a pressie. Really cute and innocent. The letter was funnier as i wrote Orange Julia( Orange Julius). It was really kooky and childish but it made them laugh. Guess sometimes, its just these kiddy stuff that perks people and makes them laugh as it brings them away from the stressful Grownup society where things are no longer innocent and simple. So who says it is bad to be childish? haha!