Its the 29th of February today!!! Leap year day!!! It's kinda exciting for me as i feel like its kinda like the world cup... 4 years once...

Anyway, something random, Jessica Alba simply looks stunning on the OSCARS red carpet despite her bulging pregnant tummy. Heidi Klum shone too! Her dress looks gorgeous! Go to www.oscar.com to check it out if you're bored!

Went out with Yen and Roo after school today to AMK Hub. Yen had her first try of Subway... We sat in Subway for more than 3 hours and we were having girl talk the whole time. It was fun and relaxing... Realised that if girls are just being put together around a table, even with nothing else around, we can plainly entertain ourselves by chit- chatting!

Tried Snow Ice for the first time today and it was rather yummy. Have never tasted anything like that. The ice was super smooth and fluffy and the mangoes, the mangoes was just heavenly!!!

Major math sessions tomorrow... 7.30 all the way till 11... Thinking about it just makes me tired...

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Apparently things took a turn for the worse...

I never expected this... I thought it was on the way to becoming better but suddenly, it just went the other way...

I have never seen you in the way you deemed yourself to be. Not for now, and i know that it won't be, even in the future.

I needa grow up. Thats what evryone tells me... Cuz i am simply too naive and gullible. I know i have to grow up to keep up to evrything. I wanna mature too... However, its smth easily said but seriously, who can tell me how to? It's just smth that comes naturally and perhaps i was born with a defect in my brain that makes me a retarded and naive 'kid' as of what i am today.

It's stressful and difficult to be facing it evryday... Perhaps i am too childish to understand all of you. Perhaps my suggestions are just stupid remarks. Perhaps i'm such a donkey that nobody ever bothers explaining to me...

No matter what you say, what you do, what happens, i'll still treat you as my best friend. To you, you are a baddie who just bullies me. To me, i know you were there for me when i needed a listening ear, even if the timing is not suitable, you'll still stay listening to me. You keep a lookout for me cuz you know that my stupidity will land me into deep shit. You never fail to make me smile and you always try your best to tell me that i'm great and you will try to make me feel confident. You're always forgiving me despite the many times i irritate you and say retarded things. You're even willing to sacrifice to make me learn that the society is not as simple as what i think.

You can continue to feel whatever you're feeling, but you can't change my mindset on it. I know that all the things you have done to me were just playful acts with no intended harm. I don't know how to explain things to you cuz you'll try to get you point through and eventually, nth i say will be heeded.

I will still treat you as my best friend no matter what, cuz the marks you left in my life, are deeply imprinted and it'll never go... No matter what, please don't feel guilty towards yourself. If by behaving like that makes you feel better, i'd rather it be this way. Just don't feel that you're an asshole...

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What the hell happened? Will anyone tell me anything?

I am not angry, not pissed, nothing... I am CLUELESS cuz things suddenly turned out like that for no reason... Did i do something wrong? Will it ever return to like as it used to?

ARGH!!! I swear that if i ever sigh again tmr, i am gonna slap my own eyeballs!

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Back From Motivational camp.

Its been really inspirational and awesome. The camp has opened up my thoughts and views on certain points. It has allowed me to know more on where i want to go, what i wanna pursue. I so swear that i am gonna work for that friggin chance to go overseas.

Three days of motivation and serious psychoing was although stressing and mind-boggling, however, it was also an eye opener, a challenge. The course was seriously lotsa fun. Not only did it allow to bond with my inner self, my parents, it has also allowed me to bond with my friends.

The camp lasted for 3 days and within this 3 days, many things happened. I saw DomTan cried twice and i don't know why guys always have to be so tough and keep their tears in them cuz i realised that guys look really cute when they cry and crying guys just makes my heart ache so so much. Well, perhaps its cuz we hardly see them cry so when they cry, you just feel so unprotected for them. Also, i've had the most number of hugs within these 3 days. a hug is really the best thing ever anyone could have. It feels so secure to be in someone's arms and it's really a magical thing that warms you up. Yenling is the best hugger in town and this gal can really give you the greatest bear hug ever! I love hugs from Yenling bear!!! Haha! Bear and B****.
The last day of camp, 16th Feb, was the best day of my life cuz i witnessed a really touching and impromptu reconciliation. Roo and DomTan gave me this wonderful surprise. Re-enactment: Roo after making her brave and touching speech, was in shock and great break down mode. ( guess she was proud of herself too. I sure was really proud!) She had a badly tear stained face and tears still didn't stop coming down. I gave her a big bear hug, Yen gave her a big bear hug. Then, suddenly, DomTan was behind when Yen moved aside. Roo and Dom looked at each other EYE TO EYE and i have never seen such looks in their eyes before. It was a mixture of relief, sorryness and pure friendship love. Then, i don't know who initiated it, but the both of them gave each other a hug. It was a hug worth top prize cuz it was a really meaningful and salvaging hug. The both of them cried really badly through the hug and it made me cry too... Roo was sobbing really really badly and Dom cried too. It was the first time he cried in front of pubic i guess. It was the first time he broke down the i hate Roo wall to reveal his true feelings that actually, he still loved her. The both of them showed me the power of a friendship. Be it whether you have done wrong or not, a true friend will always be there, ready to forgive you eventually.

Anyways, i also conclude that kaiwen and Yen are the strongest ladies in town. They held my hands behind my back and after several backing outs from *, i lost it!!! 16 years and i lost it on 16 Feb!!! What an irony. Funniest thing is that we're not even together... It smelt like onions and lasted less than a second. So i couldn't deduce much on my first. Haha:) * was kinda unsure at first too. Came close backed back and laughed then came close and backed again then eventually did it. It was a scary experience for me cuz i have nvr done it and to tell the truth, i was really really nervous. But actually, it ain't that bad. In fact, it was ok cuz i didn't really get to digest it as it lasted for a millisecond. It was rather exciting actually!

Haha... Its making me nuts and i am really going nuts. See, what i'm typing makes no sense too. I better get off now to recuperate:):):):):):):):):):)

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It's the second day of the Lunar New Year! There are so many relatives out in my hall now but i am here, sitting in front of the computer, blogging away... Well, who cares. 15 minutes away from the crowd wouldn't really matter would it?

Anyways, i am having a friggin tummyache now... And my little cousins just came in to check things out. They are both little toddlers and they are both so cute and curious. So, i am having a tummyache and a headache and a runny nose and puffy eyes... i reckon that i am looking like a sore, sick hippo now.

CNY is rather boring. Considering that i have been sleeping my way through the whole of yesterday and that i am not really well and i haven't really been out to go around for visits. But tonight, we'll be going to my aunty's house to visit and in the later wee hours of the night, my friends would be coming over to play and 'extort' red packets from my parents! Haha!
Pops kinda gave me the whole day off tomorrow and i am allowed to go anywhere with anyone till anytime( well, of course i have to come home before midnight). But, now that i am given the green light to go out, i have no idea where to go. Plus, people will all be going around too so there won't be anyone to go out with me. Well, nvm. I'll just tell pops that i wanna save the chance to be used another time when i have plans...

And, can you believe it, yesterday, when i was on the way out from Malaysia in popsie's car, feeling really lethargic and sick, the only song that kinda soothes me is 'Together we will live forever- Clint Mansell' introduced by DomTan. Haha... It was so calming and i listened to it for the whole of the 1 hour trip out. It's a great piece, a great lullaby! Haha:) It kinda makes me wanna watch a piano concert...

My relatives are gonna head home now... It's only 4pm and i am yawning away... I wanna sleep but i also don't feel like sleeping... what i really really wanna do now, is to play the Sims!!! Stella!!! Lend me your sims to download!!! Its torturous to have to hear that your Sims have already given birth and here, I can't control a single animated figure to whoopee and get pregnant:) Lend it to me.... please...

Well, more people are filling in now... I kinda got to go now to entertain them. Ya know, with me out there, they have more topics to talk about, such as," Wow! Charmaine's grown bigger", " you gotta watch your diet ahh...", "Aiyo... Don't grow fatter anymore or you'll have a hard time slimming down...". Plus, my relatives will also gain laughter as my older grandaunts call me "Charmee" which is if translated in English, Fried noodles...

So, i gotta go now to "entertain" my relatives now...
Happy New Year peeps!