So much to chunk out now cuz so much happened...

My nieces came from Philippines last week and yeah, it is kinda late to blog about it now, but nevertheless...
Stephanie and Kristel. I am so glad that we are relatives. They are the coolest!!! They can talk about everything and anything under the sun. They are cool optimists and they joke and laugh and talk and think positive. I can relate to them as i am kinda of an optimist and a crappy joker too. We sorta share the same dress sense too and we think in a westernised way... So glad to have more bananas come join me! Even my dad was like, " You guys together= crazy monkeys who are too positive and preach the same optimistic stuff... Blah blah..."
Throughout the days that they were here, we ate Chicken rice, satay, popiah, rojak, Soup restaurant, Roasted duck, Char siew, Shao rou, dim sum, laksa, hokkien noodles, chilli crab ( sinful!!!), white sliced fish hor fun, tako pachi, tori Q, ya kun kaya bread, curry puff... These are only those i could think of. There are really a lot more we tasted but i just cannot remember... We drank mostly bandung and iced milk tea and chinese tea, cuz Steph and Kris just adored those drinks... they loved these drinks so much that mom bought a huge bottle of Rose syrup and carnation milk for them to bring back to make their own bandung...
It was really fun throughout the days they came and i really cannot wait for the next time we meet again either here in Singapore or when we go over to manila.

School's boring... Studying everyday... I have no mood to study at all as all my other friends in other schools are having their holidays. I dread waking up every morning especially now that it's the rainy season. Grr... I love rainy days and i love sleeping in on rainy days... But i have gotta go to school...

It's raining now... I love rainy days, especially rainy nights as i am a night person and rainy nights are dark, and they seem to shut me out of the world... The rain is so noisy and becuz so, it allows me to be in my own world. I am in my own world now, so alone and shut out.

I am not sad, just confused.
I am perfectly alright, that's what i think.
I wanna cry, but i guess i am numb.
I wanna scream and get angry at you, but i just cannot bring
myself to.
I understand the outcome, but can i not accept
it?
I know i have to face up to reality, but can i choose not
to?

Now that it's all said and done, i feel the ache. I don't want
this to be the outcome, but i guess it's really over... I wish that i stopped it
long ago, but i can only blame myself for being such a fool to hold on myself. I
blame no one but myself. I give up. I want to let the rain take everything away.
If growing up was so difficult, i would rather not grow up at all... Tears
have flowed, words were expressed, actions were carried out... But
the pain's not cured but in fact gets inflamed... When will it heal?

The rain just never seems to bring, the joy i feel the same,
everlasting pain of the lost remains. My heart can't seem to learn
to part, the hole you left your mark, all that i dreamed of now it
seems so stuck. There's nothing left for me to do now but give in. If you gave
me one chance to tell you, how my heart was feeling, i would sing to you and
tell you i won't live my life without you. If you gave me one chance to tell you
how i was feeling, i would hold your hands and look in your eyes, and you know
i'll never let you go... And I hate how much I love you boy, but I just can't
let you go, and I hate that I love you so... One of these days maybe your magic
won't affect me, but no one in this world knows, so you'll probably always have
a spell on me... Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the
one,to build me up and tear me down, like an old abandoned house. Well, I never
saw it coming, and I should've started running, A long, long time ago...