Ms Ilan got married today!!!
Went out at 4pm to cityhall to meet Anthia, Jonehma and Jackson. Went to eat at New York and i ate the mudpie which was heavenlicious. Walked to the Esplande/Singapore river to relax as we had some spare time. It was real relaxing as the sea breeze was blowing and kissing us gently on our faces. It felt real romantic. Took the train to Eunos next and waited for 2 other guys before we take bus 15 to someplace in the world where i did'nt even know existed. Walked along Roxy hotel and it was so ulu... Reached the temple and we saw the sign stating that no footwear allowed and naturally as law abiders, we took off our shoes. When we walked up to the multi-purpose hall, we then realised that everyone wore shoes and we felt so dumb, so Anthia and Jackson went down to help retrieve our shoes. Saw many people there and Ms Ilan's husband was sitting on the stage. When ms Ilan entered the hall , she looked so gorgeous and happy. I could actually see the radiance on her face although she wore a veil. Guess this is how a woman who is indulging in love looks like.
Had to rush home as problems at home cropped up. Anthia was so super nice and she sent me home.

I really don't know what on earth you want from me. I don't know what i am doing wrong. You only want people to listen to you. You say something but you act the opposite. I am sick and tired of all your nonsense. To you, i am wanting my way. Taking and not giving. But to me, its just what i am all along. You are making life difficult for me. I don't wanna carry on this way. Others can go on being happy 15 year olds. I however, can only act according to what you want me to be. I have so much to say, but i don't know how to put it across. Sometimes i just cannot help but to hope that you will leave me alone. Perhaps this way, i will have an easier life where i am free on my own. Maybe breaking away from you is the best thing to do as i don't have to bother nor worry. I can never put my mind to ease when i am out with my friends till you give me the sign to go, but you are not satisfied. Perhaps it is my fault. I am rebellious and selfish. I don't give a damn. Perhaps being that way is better and easier. I am not going to give a damn anymore. I finally figured it out, i am better off alone...

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