Had a long and tired day at school today, especially after taking the sucky medicines. Was trying to fight and withstand the sleepybug.

Manged to have time to chat with WeiLing after school today before HCL ssp and i really realised that i should stop it. I tore up the drawing. To tell the truth, i could'nt bear to do so and when i did it, i could feel my heart aching. Like really aching, really sour... It was seriously hurting. Tears almost rolled down my cheeks but as Yihang and Weiling and Yitong were present, i did not want to break down. In fact, WeiLing was the one who screamed when she realised i tore it and Yihang was also going like NOOOOOO!!!! When i walked home alone after sending Weiling home, i could'nt contain it anymore and BAM! Was tearing while walking and i felt so stupid as the Deyi Sec people were walking along the same pathway, i was trying so hard to look normal and breathe normally.

I figured out that only by doing so can i start to stop it. I may be contradicting myself, but i hope that i am doing the right thing.

Labels: I am moving on...