Am so happy today!!! Went to school with lotsa chocolates and man were they heavy... Had ACES DAY in the morning straight after flag raising and we all had to run the circuit run. Guess the class really bonded really well as we cheered so loudly and crazily. Had to run and was quite uncertain at first as compared to the runners in my class, (practically everyone except for me) i am really not running material. But went with the flow eventually and it was super tiring... Yingru said i looked cute when i run cuz i really looked like a hippo running... Fine. There goes another level of my reputation... But it was cool, i have to admit.
Gave lotsa chocolates to many people and wasn't really taking note when Yunsheng wants to drink my water. Turns out that my grandma gave me a bottle of water babies and when Yunsheng drank the water, he was asking me what those transparent small balls were... So damn funny!!! Shoulda told him they were coloured sago so he might chew on them... haha... Ok. thats kinda mean i know...
Shiling came during the concert and we were all so happy when we reunited. Went for lunch with FR, ZX, SL, Stella and Camelia and we caught up on lotsa stuff... Supposed to go back to OLGC, but it was kinda late, so i decided not to... Although i missed on going back to see everyone, i caught up with many peeps. It was worth it.
Then SL and ZX came to my house to play. Asked my dad if i could go for the movie and he said that i can only go out ONCE during this Sept Hols, therefore i decided to go out next week. Use one whole day to go ice skating followed by the movie...
Gonna have to call Karina later to confirm the Aussie trip Itinary... Super tired but i am gonna have to call Darling Yu to confirm or i won't b able to go...

Going gaga now! having a messenger conversation with 11 CHIJ ex classmates. So super fun but really busy as well!
Anyway, i made so many chocolates today!!! Like a hundred over... They are specially made for the teachers for teacher's day as well as for my friends. Now, i am totally drained of my energy.
A quote came across my mind today... It's from A Cinderella Story. It goes like this. " Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought. Hopeless and disappointing..." Makes me rethink over everything, whether its worth it... I guess so cause i myself cannot seem to give it up... This is a sad sory in a happy book cover... Haha!

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Wahaha. I am back. Yesterday, i went to Yingru's house to bake brownies and choco chip cookies with Adeline Long, her darling Benjamin and Yingru. Initially, my mom did'nt allow me to go and i was like pleading her like crazy and lowering my dignity cuz i really really wanted to go. She said to ask my dad, but i was so afraid he would'nt allow... And wahaha. My cookie daddy allowed me to go. Was so freaking happy. Yingru went home first as she was such a lazy bom bom .. Also, Chun Kiat was going over, so she gotta go home first. Went with the couple to the baking shop and we bought lotsa ingredients. And the both of them were so sweet... They were hugging, holding hands, watching out for one another... Even on the walkways...( don't see how dangerous it was that they must watch for each other so meticulously) haha... Guess they are just really sweet and romantic. Makes me kinda jealous as well... I felt kinda extra especially in the lift where "stuff" happened that is really too embarrassing for me to post... It was damn funny but really really sweet. Made me swoon for a moment... Anyway, back to topic. So they were eating the packets of chicken rice and i was chillin out. Then we started baking. We started with the cookies and throughout, the couple just could'nt stop being mushy... I did'nt know whether to laugh or be agonized cuz it was cute yet irritating... Moreover, Yingru was saying so much stuff (if you know what i mean) that really put me in a very awkward position and i did'nt know how to react... I was in a grimace for like 1/3 of the time cuz it was really awkward... But she enjoyed herself so ya... It was fun. Then we baked the brownie and Chun Kiat was so excited and could'nt stop stirring the batter although it was already well mixed as he stirred it for so long... So we just let him stir and stir.. He had as much enthusiasm as a small kid and it was so adorable to see such enthusiam coming from people more 'mature' than me... However, it was really tiring as the cookies had some problem and the brownies were burnt at the top. But it was really good time spent as we were having fun...

Brought the brownie to school today and people said that it was really tasty and sticky. Yunsheng even showed me the way he chewed the brownie to prove how sticky it was... Stelneh and jonehma could'nt stop eating and it made me realise that if they said something was delish, i must quickly put a stop sign in front of that food to stop them from eating although i think it will not work as they both have very strong willpower and when they are both together, one has the smarts while the other has the strength. but they are my adorable darlings and i love them. Also, i sorta passed my horrible wheezy cough to darling roo. She sounded so hoarse today and i really wanted to laugh although i could'nt as she will abuse me as it was kinda my fault. SORRY MAMALOO!!!Really love this darling roo from the zoo... So funny at times and real nice when she is happy. But if she is in a bad mood, i warn all to steer clear as she will be like a ticking bomb. Anytime can go *bomba*. Guess i better stop here as if not, when mamaloo reads this, she will dissect me into a billion pieces and mash my internal organs into a smoothie... haha so gory:)

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Went to malaysia today. Actually it was today morning 3 am. My dad sorta woke us all up to go and i was so pissed. Went to the temple to pray and i was showing my discontent and displeasure. Ok, i know this is really horrible of me but i was really unhappy... Anyway, my dad sensed it and so we all left not long after reaching. He said that it is pointless to pray without the "true feel" so we left... Came out to Singapore by ourselves and when i reached home my grandaunt and granduncles were here, together with my auntie and uncle and my baby cousin. A while later, my 3rd aunt and uncle and my funky cousins came... They are really hilarious and made me laugh a hell lot... Then i had to study for HCL and now i still have to study for PHYSICS and do my homework. Seriously tired and bored and troubled... Argh!

I gotta go study now and do my stuff anyway... Toodles everyone!!! :)

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Dear Everyone,

My blog kinda brokedown about a month ago... Cuz i kinda did'nt know how to change it exactly... So i shall hereby spill all the beans about the past month and what i did...

School:
I still don't understand whatever the teachers are teaching... It is getting very frustrating cuz i feel like i am wasting my time. Everyday, i go to school and do the same s*** and i don't absorb anything. It is so boring and tiring. Sigh... This is a cycle i cannot stop, cannot change... Got to carry on aimlessly...

Family:
I don't know how to communicate with you anymore... Whatever i voice out, you say or portray it in another way. A way that you think it is which is totally not what i am trying to put across. I don't know if i am rebellious or you are over-strict. I am getting pissed at the fact that you still don't trust me... Haven't i proved myself enough? I don't know what else to do, how else to react. Verbal arguments are started and left dangling... I can't be bothered to explain myself anymore... Stop threatening cuz you think you have the right to... the bond between is thinning out...

Friends:
I miss you so much!!! Your absence is leaving me at a loss. Although it has been so long, i still cannot help but think of the times we shared and will be sharing if you are here... I really hope to be able to visit you soon... I MISS YOU!!!

Thank you so much for always being there for me... I know that i only look for you to talk... Sorry for treating you so badly... Just wanna let you know that i am really thankful to you for being such a good listening ear for me. Wish you luck with strawberry...

I don't see you as a burden. Although we are worlds apart, i am really glad to have known you as my friend. You are really a very good friend. There is no way i can ever let you go so easily... I am sorry if this sounds really harsh and selfish. But girl, you started the mess, so it is time for you top face up to it. Stop being an escapist... I don't want you to leave... You have made a mark in my life and i really don't wanna see you give up so easily... I don't wanna you to go just like that... Could you for my sake just stop being pessimistic and give up that thought. You are a precious friend to me and i don't wanna lose you... At least not in this manner... I don't wanna experience the pain... I know how you feel and i know your way of reacting is to duck away... However, i really hope that for this once, you can face up to reality... Who has'nt had it hard in life? It is just that perhaps you had it a little worse than others... For that, i can only pray for your burdens to be lightened. I can also only lend you my tree trunk arm and flabby shoulders to hold and cry on... I know that whatever i say will fall on deaf ears. No matter what it is, i just wanna tell you, " Be strong! Never give up! I will always be here for you..."

Personally: I finally found out and know where to proceed on to... Although the outcome was devastating, i sincerely wish you the best. I know that it cannot be forced and i kinda predicted the outcome long ago... I cannot gurantee that i can do my part to forget, but i will never blame you... I know that i will take a long time to erase the memories and feelings and it is not going to be easy... To know the outcome was a very painful thing. To accept it was worse. However, you should really go for the girl you can never forget and hopefully, you both will get back together again soon...

Life is filled with ups and downs. The footprints everyone left, is engraved deeply in my heart... All i can do is to remember and treasure... I am still hoping that things will go for a turn of change for the better. The only way to make my life easier is to let go. This is a thing that i can never master... Therefore, i can only hereby pray for the better...

Yours faithfully
Me