"So bring on the RAIN, and give me a RAINBOW."
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
♥Saturday, July 14, 2007♥
Gonna start afresh. Cannot believe that i am actually blogging. Went out with Roo today to amk hub to watch Harry Potter. After that, we went for dinner and walked home. Throughout the day, towards the end,things happened. I heard a lot from her and i could not advise her on anything. I feel so useless cause i know that she is seriously troubled as well. I sincerely apologise to her here (although i know that she will not come across my blog) and hope that things will turn out better for her. I myself am also stuck in a marshy situation.I cannot control my emotions. Why did i even like you in the first place? This does not need to happen to me but it is. I can only take it as it comes. But i seriously hope that you will do something to allow me to carry on be it good or bad. At least it is better for me. I don't want to be hanging here aimlessly. I cannot believe that i actually changed so much for you. I could not concentrate, lost weight, cried and blushed. I am freaking irritated by my own response/ actions. I think i am so emo now. I gotta start life proper after this post and a good nights sleep. Its not gonna be easy cause i will be reminded of you from time to time and i know that when i see your face i will go gaga again. I know as from my reaction tonight. I like you that i know. I am gonna have to face up to reality. Not gonna run away anymore. Gotta be patient and wait. Gonna let things take its own course. Be it good or bad, i feel lucky just to know that you feel the same way. I should be satisfied cause i am seriously not worthy of all that you have given me. I have experienced happiness, sweetness and many other great things that came packaged with it. I love it but i know i cannot go about like this anymore. I am gonna have to let go. Nothing lasts forever. May everything turn out well. May i be able to control myself. Just pray for myself to not give up hope. Before i end, special thanks to: Stella, Roo, Jomama and that you for helping me through everything and staying by me unconditionally 24/7 allowing me to feel blessed and well pampered. May god bless me.
